Sunday, April 25, 2004
helo... hmm... sumthings got me real troubled... am i suppsed to be happy or sad? he changed so much.. from a slacker to a hardworking chap... very good indeed... but... haiz... god is just stupidly making fun of me... look! he is like wad a nice chap... and he is like 'decent'????? wad d... i told anqi i dun mind... but i bluff hu lohz... haiz... and speaking of anqi... she is leving in june... sob!!!!!! when i needed her most... and she is leaving... wad is wrong with her parents? wad is wrong with Singapore?? s'pore rockz ok?! wad is so gd abt the brisbane or wadeva shit..? dun u noe ANQI DUN WANT TO LEAVE???? YUCKZ.
anyway... tml got this stupid source base test.. sis just go through wif me... yeah yeah... i duno am i ready or not... shuckz...
ok... next.. sumbody... suckz right to the core... c her face make me eekz... itz another sumbody... not tt one... the one... hu is... erm... acting friendly... when she is a real ap... ppl just like her... fine fine fine... wait till u noe her real self... yeah rite... understanding... yeah rite.... then fine loh...gd luck to tose ppl...
世界若是那么小，为何我的真心，你听不到。。。
sad.. sob.. idiot..
mb... all u want is study and bb.... gd luck then...
luv
gabby
dreaming of... slapping him and tell him...'@$^&*^%#'


Natsuki bought another stitch item 4/25/2004 04:45:00 PM

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Wednesday, April 21, 2004
yo... hmm... mid-yr coming worz!! work hard work hard!!! mummy... i wun let you down!! love u! hmm... now work hard... after exams... got sum plans... heex!! yeah... for myself? just want to do something... dont want to let it slip again!! wahaha.... mich... hmm.... how to say... jiayou lohx.. haha... yeening... dun think too much... rmber wad i sae... ok? erm... although school relli suckz... and all tos stuff goin' ard.. but i noe... my mind... oni have four things... or rather person... energy, mummy, s, mayday.... work hard for them man!!! cant afford to let them down!!! yeah...!!!

一切还没结束....
而是即将开始....

love
gabby
dreaming of... wad i've mentioned....




Natsuki bought another stitch item 4/21/2004 10:22:00 PM

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Thursday, April 15, 2004
GoD GoD GoD!!! ok... i must relax man... but i cant!!!!! itz like... i saw him... i actually saw him... unexpectedly... suddenly think he is the best!!! wahaha... yeah.... argh.... gosh man... sumthink to brighten up my week.... !!!! argh... haiz...
yet... it is still not perfect... my life is like not even 0.0000001% of perfect... like duh.. so sad... searching for some hope... wish me luck... hopefully... i'll find my goal.... yeah... my goal...
most impt things or ppl in my life
-Family... esp my mum
-Energy... esp shuwei
-Music... esp mayday's
-Yeening... yeah... rock on..wahaha...
-Michelle... she still made me laugh a little...
-Cindy... there for me ger...
-Pink colour and blue colour... what i hope to see in my life... everything like a dream...
-S!!!!!! my motivation...
-Some real nice teachers... eg: johnathan soh... mark chan... mdm cheng
-CO... the music it provided..
-Audrey and gang... make me realised tt... simple is just so nice...
-My diary... my life...
-Fashion... wahaha...
-Confidence!... in myself...
-My strong-willed... ttz my strong side...
-My childhood... best memories... nv gonna fade...
-being isolated experience... made me realised the truth the fake...
-being out of love... yeah yeah...

heex...
luv
gabby
dreaming of.. s!!!!!!





Natsuki bought another stitch item 4/15/2004 10:02:00 PM

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Wednesday, April 14, 2004
i just went to one site... see red... and came back... gross.... think the sight of u makes me want to puke too... still thinking how to explain... cuz i noe wad u are thinking... but nvm... i think.... no way now.... ppl dun waste ur breathe... side her... if u want... she can stand 'alone'.... so do i.. blehz... ur definition of alone kinda suckz right... dun think u've got everything lo.... mb u've got.... but mb i dun care anymore.... faker... tell them abt me... i now wad u've got to say.... like... i dun care.... i am the fool.... frm the start.... yah... no friends are forever... cuz u dun deserve it.... get him man... i dun care now.... dun think this will hurt me lo... wahaha.... zhi cuo neng gai... u heard tt b4??? well.... u nv... blehz.... get lost too.... eekz.... yuckz.... puke... i hate you.... and u... hurt me... u are not the princess... gross.... want me say the truth? u damn AP LOH.... happy?! cry loh... all u can do... cry and complain... gross...

puking....
u forced me....


Natsuki bought another stitch item 4/14/2004 10:49:00 PM

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hmm.... yawns.. want to watch american idol... but duno y today is repeated one... sianz.... jon peter lewis!!! and diana degarmo!!! yeah!!!
today... real long day... after geog extra lessons... went to c the bass juniors... then went eat with aud, yeening, yupng, huiping, pailin and shijie... haha... went siglap loh... they very fun lehz... haha... and we were playing with tos leftover food... wahaha... then went fer co... quite sianz... but then played 'she songs' game with aud... so diaox... wahaha... hmm... tml cross country! hope to see him!! but kinda impossible... like one whole sea of ppl... how to find one single person??? heex...
anyway... wo si xin le... i cAn see... i am not blind... i feel like a fool.... total fool... eekz... nvm... hiaz...
tok abt double bass??? hmm... suddenly feel proud bout being in the bass sect... hmmm... it suddenly rox!! heex... hmm...
~tmsco bass section~
kong xinpeng: our pro-iest senior foreva!!! haha...grauating soon siaz... hmm hmm... haha... must use our present hor... if not i hoot u...!!!
wong yeening: my very good sista!!! hmm... pro oso... next female xinpeng worz!!!
chua yee chuan: hee hee... me lahz... hmm... i duno how to read flats and stuff... lousy siaz.... hmm.. but tryin my best le...!!! jia you!
audrey cheng: got potential!!! yohoho!! hmm... must jiayou for syf!!!
ifana tjung: not bad!!! must come mur often wors!!
sheramin: our jr... gdgdgd... must jiayou... must be te nest yn worz...
dennis: dun play play ok!!!!!! must ren zhen yi dian!!!! i blif u can do it ok....

haha.....
gosh... he can read my mind....

haiz
luv
gabby......
dreaming of... hope to c him tml... heehee...


Natsuki bought another stitch item 4/14/2004 10:10:00 PM

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Saturday, April 10, 2004

one of the neoprtz... hee yah... haha...


Natsuki bought another stitch item 4/10/2004 11:29:00 PM

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lalalalala... can you believe it??? i like co!!!! i mean sep today... suddenly think that bass rockz!!! it is so cool!! i was telling yn i am beginning to like co becuz i saw xuefang's hardwork everythink... and we gave that bitch a name call 386... haha... want noe hu and y? haha... u will noe soon... hmm.... thanks connie, yeening, cindy, anqi, henry and wanyu... dun ask why... just suddenly want to thank them... luv them!! muackz...
lets tok abt yesterday... me yn and mich went to take neoprts then went to sing karaoke... the neoprts are nice... except one... that stupid lousy machine!!! we called it 'yucky' then its like haven deco finish time was up... then it is like so diaoz... haha... but others were nice... then the next stop karaoke... at first we tok 3 hrs was enuff... but it wasnt!!! we dun hav enuff tym and all... haha.... have to skip and skip... the songs very new... then we act s.h.e... yn is selina... mich ella... and me hebe!!! haha... then tt stupid hebe need to sing all high notes... then i shout until my voice very sore then chu chou in front of them... but... glad to noe... they say my voice sounds like hebe... wahaha... then when we go home... sumthing happen... we suppose to cross a big road then... i was waiting fer the chance to go... but then i realise... both of them oredi cross the road... i was petrified... then dun dare to cross then in the end... i walk a long way to the traffic light and cross... heehee... i just so timid.... like shuwei... eex.. liddat very cham... he cant protect me... i cant protect him... wahahaha!!!!!!! diox!! ttz wad kon told me to do... 'think of happy stuff... my energy... my 'ted'... my 'a'... my favourite hamsters.. my family... and tos hu really care and lurved me...' *smiles* ....
hmm... i just love my mum... since sumthink cropped up in my friendship, i turn to my mum... and she just encourage me... i ove her... not forgetting my dad... altho i seems to dislike him... but i relli love him... and he no longer force me to eat rice!!! yeah!!! hee... my sis... thkz fer leetin me use ur 7650!! heex... longer loan can? wahaha...
sianz... realised i still got tuition hw!! and tues got two tests!! haha.. nvm... jiayou to me!
luv
gabby
dreaming of... happy stuffs..

Natsuki bought another stitch item 4/10/2004 10:52:00 PM

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Thursday, April 08, 2004

can i fulfill the promise? i dunoe... haiz... i am so stupid... am i a bitch? arghz.... am i real guilty? am i in the biggest wrong?sumthink is gone... y i cant find anymore excuses ? the promise... wad if i cant fulfill it? ttz it loh... y everyone must be angry? y everyone cant be... benevolent? y did i come to tms? and y am i born? argh!!!!!!! wad am i suppose to do... i felt tt my dignity is lost... my fren is gone... tt one... dun mistook... like just get to noe tt person better... and god is doin this to me.... haiz... nvm...

mb... i'll heal sumday... in another place, in another world......

luv
gabby

Natsuki bought another stitch item 4/08/2004 11:26:00 PM

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gosh... henry... u are.. duh!!! thanks alot... but... i am still in the middle of the conversation... everything is in a mess... and... u are leaving me in a mess... am i ready for the unpleasant stuff?

luv
gabby

Natsuki bought another stitch item 4/08/2004 10:03:00 PM

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Saturday, April 03, 2004

he will never know there is a girl behind him all along,
that girl who like for what he is,
not because of what that happened within the night,
he will never noe what the girl is thinking,
even she is right beside him,
singing the song he loves,
he doesnt know she is cheering for him,
she isnt like other girls,
she likes him since that day,
the heart that cracks when she sees him alone,
desperate but all must be held,
he cant even remember her name,
yet she wrote his all over her diary,
no tears came out for him,
becaus upon seeing him,
she will be just so happy,
she walks in in the morning,
he walks out without noticing,
he was toking to her,
didnt noe she was smiling,
her eyes sparkles when he is around,
but he was just not there to see,
let this be a secret forever,
even she is always behind the scene,
she always wanted him to know,
she is forever there,
whenever he is low,
her heart breaks for him.

030404 1004pm

Natsuki bought another stitch item 4/03/2004 09:39:00 PM

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back from the afterworld... u now wad????????????????? AIMRAN SIMPLY ROCKZ!!!!!! haha.... the faridah not bad, just abit pitchy.... congratz to aim.... haha.... erm.... think he shud join singapore idol......
HAHA... erm.... think ttz all.... haha... nth to sae..... buaiz
gtg
luv
gabby
dreaming of.... blah blah blah.... cant say...

Natsuki bought another stitch item 4/03/2004 09:28:00 PM

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Friday, April 02, 2004

i am still awake in the chaos...... rather still i shall force myself to be awake... i can still eat, play, sing, dance and sleep... still not died.... so... tos hu care fer me... i am still ok.... i'll find u guys when i am relli broke down...
random thotz....
1.i am ok
2.i am still ok
3.i am smiling
4.i still can talk
5.i am not defeated
6.kinship is impt...
7.friendship... nt tt impt?
8.bgr... hu cares?
9.tml is afterworld...
10.i shall go crazy with yeening
11.thanks energy... i noe u guys are still there..
12.mummy... i luv u
13. daddy...i luv u
14.i shall not care wad other ppl think of me anymur...
15.i am not a disgrace
16.i luv my diary
17.i luv to blog
18.life.... itz hard...
19.my heart.... will nv be broken...
20.my dreams... will nv be destroyed
21.i'll work hard in mid-yr...
22.i am not a ger hu doesnt study
23.i am not a bitch
24.i am not useless
25.i'll go on w/o a best friend.
26.i'll go on, despite ppl hate me
27.i am still me
28. thanks for reading.

luv
gabby
dreaming... nth.

Natsuki bought another stitch item 4/02/2004 09:42:00 PM

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....................................................... lost fer words
......................................i wanted to cry but tears dun cum out
.......................tries to think of the happy sides
................but sad ones just kept trampling my mind
..........never judge a bk by its cover
......lessons i've learnt
... nope
..lessons you shud learn

Natsuki bought another stitch item 4/02/2004 09:38:00 PM

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Thursday, April 01, 2004

after so many things... i got this conclusion...
KINSHIP IS THE MOST IMPORTANT THING IN MY LIFE...
haiz.... just wanna score well fer tests and examz....

luv
gabby
dreaming of... not letting my parents down

Natsuki bought another stitch item 4/01/2004 09:26:00 PM

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i AM ok.......
i AM fine.......
After everything..... i lost my senses.... no feelings anymore... just want to do well in my studies now... dun think of anything...cant let my parents down....
kinship is now the most impt thing in my life... the oni thing that is real.......
lost my confidence in love and friendship...

luv
gabby
dreaming of... scoring well fer tests and exams.... dun think too much..

Natsuki bought another stitch item 4/01/2004 09:10:00 PM

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