I realise I'll come here everytime I fall into major depression. Sorry that I only share sad stuffs here, that is when I really need some place to vent....

Okie, I've graduated, and doesn't seems to be able to find a job. The reason being I screwed up some interviews. The first one was *****p***. But it was because I wasn't really very interested in the company, and they are only willing to pay me $1800 which might be bargained down again. The person told me that in the graphic design industry, the highest/lowest pay is kinda fixed no matter you are a degree/diploma holder. It sets me thinking if I really wanna be stuck in this industry for the rest of my life receiving 1800/mth, while my friends get $2000 and above... then why the hell did I go through those hell in jc for that freaking degree! Other GD jobs I applied didn't reply me... I guessed because they don't wanna hire a degree holder with higher expected pay for a job that diplomats can do at a lower rate.... or simply because my portfolio not impressive enough...

And the other one.... is **g***l, they didn't get back to me... because I told them I'm not a good writer when they are looking for a writer cum photographer... I focused too much on photography...

I told myself to give myself sometime to reconsider this situation... I came out with some solutions...

1. Simply send resume to every company looking for GD... take up the best offer no matter how low it is... or some marketing jobs?

pro: will finally get a job, no need get nag.

cons: damn the low pay!

2. Start clay sweets classes. Simply start earning some pocket money first.

pro: fun! on time on pace.

cons: where to get business? location?

3. Freelance photographer.

pro: this is what I want... at least for the moment...

cons: not a pro photographer yet. tough competition with so many youths taking up photography.

Honestly, I quite confident about my photoshopping and "shen3 mei3 guan1"... it is just those technical stuffs... lighting, studio which is a whole lot to learn... and I'll need money to take courses!

4. Freelance graphic designer...

simple don't know where to start.

5. Help my sister.

I kinda wanna help... but I don't know how... suck at marketing...

6. WOrk at my dad's place...

last resort....

7. beg my cousin to hire me.

last last resort.

8. NIE.

last last last resort.

and I freaking came out with many business idea

I'm seriously mad stress now that pimples are popping... And I turn to eating junk food to destress... I've been eating alot... like %$&*%$%$&%&... and I think I gained back what I lost... haha... nth new.... I need to lost weight again and I can go on babbling about this shit...

PLUS I'm totally suffering from holiday withdrawal...

HK T-T

TW T-T....

Why do happy times go by so fast?

OK, now, right now gotta try to be positive...