Da Dreamer

2011-12-02T09:03:00.001+08:00

最近討厭bubbly這個字。
記得中學的時候，紀念冊上常有人說我bubbly。
不知道曾幾何時，再沒有人用bubbly形容我。我在陌生人面前變得很安靜。有時我想可能是高中的孤僻所延伸出來的。
我的性格將成為我求職的一大障礙。處於尷尬位置現在的我，真的好辛苦。

2011-11-21T23:52:00.002+08:00

Depression time.

Some company has interest in hiring me. But the working hours is long and pay is somehow pathetic. and worse thing is that gotta work on Sats, 10am-1pm.

You can say I'm spoilt. I admit. I don't really wanna work. Because honestly speaking, I don't need to. If I run out of money, my dad can give me. If not my bf can give me pocket money. I don't have to provide for anybody.

The whole world tells me not to accept the job. THE WHOLE WORLD. EXCEPT MY DAD.

I ask if I can work at his company excluding sat... he said no. and that his business has nothing much to do. he don't wanna hire me. So, it has always been my wishful thinking that he needs help and I can make a difference.

If I want and if I dare I would remind him that it was him who didn't want me to go for Mass Comm at NTU, as a result I ended up in NUS which a degree majoring in a most diverse yet useless course in the whole world.

Slap in my face, maybe it is time for me to wake up. I may come from a well-to-do family. But not as rich as some other family... my dad don't own any listed company... so I'm not qian jin or whatsoever... then why spoil and shelter me in the first place...

I don't wanna miss a thing about the bbks... they are like my source or energy and happiness... but I guess I don't have a choice... like many others I'm gonna work like a cow morning till night and even my weekends for that pathetic miserable pay.

MY FUTURE PAY 1440 AFTER CPF DEDUCTION. I'm a grad from NUS, majoring in CNM. thanks arigatou. bye bye.

2011-07-01T23:19:00.003+08:00

Hello dead blog.

I realise I'll come here everytime I fall into major depression. Sorry that I only share sad stuffs here, that is when I really need some place to vent....

Okie, I've graduated, and doesn't seems to be able to find a job. The reason being I screwed up some interviews. The first one was *****p***. But it was because I wasn't really very interested in the company, and they are only willing to pay me $1800 which might be bargained down again. The person told me that in the graphic design industry, the highest/lowest pay is kinda fixed no matter you are a degree/diploma holder. It sets me thinking if I really wanna be stuck in this industry for the rest of my life receiving 1800/mth, while my friends get $2000 and above... then why the hell did I go through those hell in jc for that freaking degree! Other GD jobs I applied didn't reply me... I guessed because they don't wanna hire a degree holder with higher expected pay for a job that diplomats can do at a lower rate.... or simply because my portfolio not impressive enough...

And the other one.... is **g***l, they didn't get back to me... because I told them I'm not a good writer when they are looking for a writer cum photographer... I focused too much on photography...

I told myself to give myself sometime to reconsider this situation... I came out with some solutions...

1. Simply send resume to every company looking for GD... take up the best offer no matter how low it is... or some marketing jobs?

pro: will finally get a job, no need get nag.

cons: damn the low pay!

2. Start clay sweets classes. Simply start earning some pocket money first.

pro: fun! on time on pace.

cons: where to get business? location?

3. Freelance photographer.

pro: this is what I want... at least for the moment...

cons: not a pro photographer yet. tough competition with so many youths taking up photography.

Honestly, I quite confident about my photoshopping and "shen3 mei3 guan1"... it is just those technical stuffs... lighting, studio which is a whole lot to learn... and I'll need money to take courses!

4. Freelance graphic designer...

simple don't know where to start.

5. Help my sister.

I kinda wanna help... but I don't know how... suck at marketing...

6. WOrk at my dad's place...

last resort....

7. beg my cousin to hire me.

last last resort.

8. NIE.

last last last resort.

and I freaking came out with many business idea

I'm seriously mad stress now that pimples are popping... And I turn to eating junk food to destress... I've been eating alot... like %$&*%$%$&%&... and I think I gained back what I lost... haha... nth new.... I need to lost weight again and I can go on babbling about this shit...

PLUS I'm totally suffering from holiday withdrawal...

HK T-T

TW T-T....

Why do happy times go by so fast?

OK, now, right now gotta try to be positive...

when i wish upon a star, maybe things will work, no matter who I am.......

2010-12-18T23:46:00.002+08:00

Today must be the most heartbreaking day ever.

I slept at 3.30am and got woke up by my mom at 5.30am... She told me that bbk is swelling very badly... ad they are bringing her to the doc now... I heard bbk crying... So I went down after a few minutes of cooling down... Bbk was in my mom's arms... I did not wear my specs, so I went nearer...

and the next moment... I burst into tears.... bbk's cute face was swollen... her eyes became very small I couldn't not recognise her... I broke down... my sis was crying too.... bbk was very tired... felt so helpless.... she wasnt the baby we all knew... they went out and I went back to my room... I can't stop crying.... I was super worried... my heart shattered... I called yy 40 times... but he did not wake up, I called a couple of friends because I really needed someone... Xinyi is the only one who got woke up.... she consoled me n I felt much better...

I told myself... no matter how bbk look now, she is still my precious baby...

she might not be my child, but I can't even imagine myself without her... since the day she is born, she has become the centre of my life... everytime I feel low... the only person in this world who can make me smile.... I couldn't eve imagine sharing my love with her sister or with my future own child....

All I can do is pray... I prayed to dbg... I told him to bless bbk...

They came after 2 hours... and the doc say bbk's body is not reactin well with her chicken pox...

so it makes her swollen...

I went to iluma... my sister fetched me... she cant take care bbk or go near her cos she is pregnant.. I uds how she feel... I can see she is tryin to stay positive... All my mind is filled w bbk...until I receive news that her face is not so swollen anymore... I cried on the spot...

But during evening, my mom called, I asked her how is bbk... she said the swelling is back again...

My heart broke again....

Finally I reached home... And saw her... her face is not so swollen anymore...

I am staying over at my sis house to acc her... Sleeping in bbk's room... I could feel her right with me... heart filled with emotios and I cant even type proper english....

I hope she will recover her soon... I love her so much... love my family so much I dont them to suffer....

2010-12-17T21:01:00.002+08:00

Scoopies will be at Iluma again tml. But I'm eggcited at all. The main reason is because bbk is down with chicken pox. I had my vaccine when I am 12 and the doc told me that I don't have to get vaccine again. Bbk is staying at our house because my sister cannot get close to her. I see her face having more and more pox everyday. And today, she have red patches and swollen limbs, we are suspecting that she is allergic to her itch-free medicine. I am very worried and heartbroken... her cute face!!! T-T is now covered with red dots.... The swollen limbs are also very scary... why does she keep getting sick!!! It is so unfair to a baby... she still remains energetic and fools around, but I just feel like crying when I see her! I wanna avoid seeing her but my mom will not be ale to handle her alone...

To make things worse, I can't connect to internet, I am actually tethering with my iphone... I don't know if I should call starhub for the FIFTH time to call them to come down to check since bbk is having pox... it wouldn't be nice if I still call the person down. But if I really don't like the feeling of a lingering unsolved problem... Iphone tethering is not a soltion because it might just surpass 12gb is I on pps all day... I totally lost my mood to do anything for the arts market tml... worried!!!!

I'm also afraid that my mom will contract pox again, although she had once already... but I know it is possible to get the 2nd time... I don't dare to think what will happen if my mom got it...

Xmas is coming but life is sooooo freaking yucky!

I really feel like self-destroying myself~

2010-11-11T21:43:00.002+08:00

我想这里已经没有什么人光临了吧？

今天心情好糟！！！家里发生一些事，学校要做的事也一大堆。。。我的头大概是脑缺氧。。。最近开始痛。。。总之麻烦一大堆。。。

我说，大家又没有很想和一帮人/某一人做朋友的感觉？

我觉得我日语b的同学们都很有趣。。。而且有些同学已经变成好朋友了。。。可是我就是无法融入。。。可是我又觉得他们人都不错。。。

从小到大。。。我发现，我跟男生无法做很好的朋友。。。

平时，看人家女孩子和男生可以打成一片，心里暗中羡慕。。。

我跟男生的交际，都是因为我暗恋人家，还是什么的。。。不然就是暧昧期？！

我不知道呀。。。我给人家的感觉是怎么样的呢？亲切？不友善？

认识我的人都应该知道我超级友善的。。。可是在课室里，小组里，我就是表现不出来。。。

好难过呀。。。

自卑心作祟。。。

最近，又在减肥了。。。可是还是懒得运动。。。就是少吃而已。。。迷迷糊糊也减了5KG！可是现在到瓶颈了。。。

有时候，我会有一些非常不好的念头。。。

像是：就算得厌食症也要瘦下来。。。

很不ok...可是我不能不这么想。。。

我觉得我烦恼的一切。。。都是有关联的。

我真的希望能瘦下来。。。做个普通身材的女孩子。。。这样我就不会再怀疑别人对我的眼光是不是因为我太肥了还是什么。。。。

我会反省的。。。

2010-07-30T12:12:00.003+08:00

Look at the namecards u have in ur wallet....

What's our creativity and visual design, as compared to these....

damn!

2010-07-28T10:28:00.002+08:00

如果有一天，我发达了。。。。

我将会成为香奈儿的VIP....

2010-07-02T23:38:00.002+08:00

我真的好怀念你到来的美好。

原本对不起眼的你一点也不感兴趣，可是和你第一次接触后，我深深爱上了你。。。

i miss u.....

渡小月的杏仁露。。。

你软绵绵的口感，让我欲罢不能。。。

如果可以。。。让我再吃你吧！！！

五月。天

2010-04-22T02:07:00.001+08:00

今晚。读书。有五月天的歌陪我。

有时我忘了他们给了我很多。

他们不只是偶像，他们的歌是精神粮食，他们树成长过程的一部分。

「候鸟」这首歌，你也许没有听过。可是我却听了它九年。

我很庆幸，
我不是那种因为阿信才注意到五月天，
不是那种喜欢「恋爱ing」才喜欢他们，
不要是那种只听过「温柔」而没有听过「有你的将来」的粉丝。

我很开心五月天陪了我十年，我也陪了他们十年。
很开心我只错过他们第一场演唱会。
感谢我姐带我去看他们的告别演唱会。

虽然这次演唱会让我很失望。但毕竟不是他们想要的。听着他们以前到现在的歌，真的感觉很奇妙。

如果没有他们，我也许不会那么喜欢音乐吧。
阿信已经35岁了。omg。

期待他传达更多人生大道理给我。
I'm Gua, I love mayday! Forever!

2010-04-10T23:40:00.004+08:00

Wanna share some pretty pictures of this Japanese model called Karina. I really hae a good impression of her, maybe through the J-drama Love Shuffle where I first know of her. After seeing her magazine shoots scans, I felt that she is a true Gyaru! She can bring out many styles even though she may not be the most prettiest model in the industry. Pretty!

綺麗ですね。私もギャルに成るつぃ！

2010-04-06T22:12:00.004+08:00

I know I've been grumbling and grumbling about how much I wanna go Japan again. So, I feel like just posting some photos from 2008, my trip to Japan. I remember I didn't really record it at this blog, lets taste it all over again. Muahaha.

Mickey and Winnie only appears at a special timing, and people have to queue orderly to take photo with them. There was 2 queues, and I choose Mickey over Pooh. Never was a great great lover of Mickey, but I just felt that taking a photo with Mickey is a must before I die. Look how he held my hand. So sweet. However, next time round I might still choose Mickey over Pooh, I don't know why, Mickey is such an important mascot!

My parents and aunty were tired, so I decided to walk around on my own. I'm kinda shy to ask people to take pictures for me. So I literally camwhored with Donald Duck. How cool is that? How many out of thousands would have ever camwhored with Donald Duck? Too bad this picture ain't perfect. Cute Donald wanted to see the pucture after I took it =)

Sweet photo. Though I very wished that it was my dear Stitch beside me. But every mascot is just so lovely.

Dad took this weird photo. Let me explain. In TDL, kids ran after mascots to take their autograph. This pig is from the Three Little Pigs, and I was asking him for his autograph. That stitch book was mine. haha. The mascots basically write their name, crookedly. haha. Cute!

It's a small world afterall. =) My favourite, and must-ride ride in TDL. A ride which bring you through the whole world! Little dolls dancing around and singing "It's a small world afterall" in their language. Heartwarming ride, never been so macro in terms of "one peace" "one love", but totally love this ride.

Beautiful view at the World Bazaar.

THE DISNEY RESORT. I haven't stayed there before yet. It would totally be another dream come true if I do.

Shuttle to TDL.

My favourite favourite place at Harajuku, multistorey merchandise, toy store, I love it so much I can stay there like forever!!!!!!!!

Even the board for construction site notice is so adorable.

It is a must for me to go Japan either this year or next year. I am thinking of going twice next year. Nothing can stop me! Even though I've missed every single chance to go Japan for SEP, I can always go on my own. I simply love TOKYO. and I dun mind just visiting the small old places over and over again. Wanna go together? ^^

2010-03-28T18:12:00.001+08:00

Sometimes we just don't see how ourselves are actually the cause of many undesirable effects.

2010-03-19T23:16:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I think I have some mental illness. Perhaps 躁郁症，神经紧绷症? Haha, I know nobody will believe me. But I do pull my hair, slap myself and bang my head to the wall occasionally. Scary eh? But being able to say it here means I'm pretty alright, still normal. Why do I do that? When I feel that the whole world is against me and when something awful happens and I really dont't know what to do.

For the past few days, emotions just flood in.

Couple of things:

1. Schoolwork.

I really find school meaningless nowadays. School life is mundane.

Those modules I take, those prerequisites, those modules I'm totally not interested in just irritate me. I'm not an writer, neither am I an inspiring one. I don't understand why NEW MEDIA GOTTA DO WITH NEWS REPORTING. I really mean, newspaper's news reporting. I hate it! Everyday in the tutorials, I just can't concentrate. I just don't feel like listening. I really dislike that environment, which I don't know how to describe.

and... interactive media design. I dread it, dread every software we used. How is it going to help me in my life? I dun wanna be a f**king game designer. Okie, I can't blame anyone on it, it is not a prerequisite module.

Somehow, I felt that at least Governance in New Media is more useful.

Japanese............. I really felt disappointed in myself. If I can restart this semester, I think I'll really concentrate on Japanese Language. I hate it when I got back my quizzes and looked around, and realized everyone else is scoring full marks or near full marks while me just get a couple of marks. It just made me realised that I don't really like to lose in things I have great passion in...... Had a talk with Cindy on bus that day, it made me really wanna change this situation.....

2. Social Environment

I'm never good at sociability. But I dare to say I'm real good at judging people. Perhaps, I judge too much. Sometimes, I find myself landing in a space with no one I 看得顺眼。

There are just some people, who are so disgusting and fake and making friends with their own kind. I can actually imagine myself stabbing into their faces. Gosh, I must be crazy.....

我真的。。。没有办法再很大的社群当中生存。人的假面，虚伪，不公平对待，真的让我做呕。让我以人类的身份感到羞耻。To survive in a community, status and sociability are still very important. That is why, I tell Mingkee, I wanna live in the world of 珠光宝气。If I can't attain sociability, I'll get status and money to gain an competitive edge. 或许，我的命跟大势力的人比较有缘，我不应该为小事而耿耿于怀。

可是，当我觉悟，发现很多东西是要争取的时候。。。已经来不及了。

3. SEP, overseas program

It's official, I had missed every single chance to go to Japan for exchange or whatever program. Thanks to my laziness, and in-spontaneous Uni life. Don't you just dread youself, Gua Gua?

4. Weight

I can't slim down. Cos I can't stop eating. Eating is one of the very few enjoyable process I go through daily. Fat, I'm Fat.........

5. Clay

I'm not good enough. Never mind about the polymer clay or air dry clay thingy.. I'm just not good enough.

6. Period

My period comes once in every 3 months. I'm unhealthy.

7. Spine

My spine hurts once in awhile. I think it is affecting my organs.

There are many many reasons for me to get emo right now. If I pause my typing now, and think of all these, I think tears can drop immediately. Trivial as they may seem, but one thing goes wrong, the rest follow.

I remember Seehui saying how cheerful I am, smiling all the time even with the crazy stressful life of JC. Sad to say, I hadn't been smiling much these days. I used to cheer people up, but now I don't even know much about myself. I no longer smile to myself and tell myself "hahahaha, that's funny".... I get so paranoid that I'm afraid that I might drop bbk one day when I'm carrying here. What if something happen to her when I'm taking care of her？？？？？

Roarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. clinging onto what had been done and what that seemed unfair will not change history or anything right now. I hope that worries will go away with this post published.

All the best, friends.

2010-02-03T22:23:00.003+08:00

ello. ello.

It has been a long time since I blogged! School has been okay, just that Japanese Language is taking up a lot of time! BUt it is definietly as nice modules with cute Japanese Sensei! I'm glad I didn't have any non-Japanese but Chinni teachers. If not the feeling of learning the language won't be so authentic! Other modules are still alright. Anyway, did you realise I'm trying not to blog in Singlish? This is because the module, Media Writing is full of Jia Gang Dang shit who likes to flaunt their powerful English so I must kick away my singlish habit. (omg, this sentence totally cmi)

I have one piece of good news! Scoopies will be debuting in NUS Campus next Wednesday! It will e at Science Faculty, outside LT27! The bad news is I have been doing preparations for it that I'm neglecting my assignments that are piling up! I think I'll have to rest from my tiny business after this bazzaar. =(

Oh! I have so many good news! I got a proper praise from one of my customer:

"Hello!

I have already received the items.
And, i must say that they are really adorable!
I'll be looking forward to more adorable creation of yours!"

Whee! So happy!

So this is my finalized namecard (for the bazaar at least)

New banner~

All I need to do is to make more items and I'm ready for the bazzaar! Please drop by if you're free~ Now obligations to buy but to help. MUAHAHA. Joking!

BTW, Baby K is growing everyday! So cute! Love her to bits!

2010-01-15T00:59:00.002+08:00

School has started this week T-T Stupidly, we bid for this module with 795 POINTS which others bid with 1 POINT at the 2nd round. And then we dropped this module because it is a hell module. yeah yeah yeah so called module of a lifetime?? I have more meaningful things to do for my wonderful life, I'm so not going to camp in school for 2 weeks to produce some video for whoever' sake.

Japanese Language 1 has been cool. Just that the lecturer is kinda boring but love how all students repeat the jap words he said. Lotsa work to be done for Jap Lang I'll do my best cos I've already drop that module of a lifetime so there's no more excuse to not buck up for JL.

Nm2220 is not bad. Its a mass media writing module. Like the visual part but I guess scarier stuffs will come next.

PR2202, Perfume and Cosmetics. I sooooo happy that it is not a boring module. It is simply cool and content so far is very trival and wahaha. and i can S/u this. muahaha. love it.

NM2217 designing interactive media. I see the shadows of NM2210. I guess this shall be the most dreadful module for this sem!

NM3202, haven take the lecture yet cos I just got a successful appeal~

Thanks to Yichen's offer, I kinda pick up Illustrator again just now~ Here is my stuff after a few hours. @-@

Japanese Schoolgirl with Hair Bun without palms and legs.

Just like how we use to hate drawing hands and leg of our people during art lessons, I have no idea how to draw the leg and hand of my work~ ahaha...........

gtg and zzzzzzzzzzzzz............... BYE!

2009-12-25T23:04:00.004+08:00

Merry Christmas everyone! Hope you've enjoyed your jolly day!

Gathering at Dinah's house was fun. I think I did alot of chores:

1. cutting fruits for the fondue

2. mixed the cordial

3. made sushi

4. killed the ambushed ants on the seaweed packagings

5. toasted breadsticks

6. fix the fondue machine with ahchee

Lotsa junky work I don't do at home!

Haha...

Anyway, sister and melvin came to buy my stuffs for melvin's colleagues. Melvin said I should print out cards to put inside. So I quickly did this in a span of 10 mins:

Yay, free publicity. But I think its toooo aiclay-ist. Although I'm largely inspired and motivated by her.....

Then, my sister went to her room and dug out many junky stuffs that are real useful to me, such as cards, tags, label stickers, silver strings, zip lock bags, blah blah. All packaging stuffs! She told e to DIY namecards (haha, sorry yichen). I was quite excited about it so I went to design with Illustrator. Here's my current design:

FOOD MINIATURES ACCESSORIES CRAFTER. I totally bul**hit that. Cos one who make dollhouse miniature is called MINIATURIST. But I'm not like those people. So I crap this designation up! hohoho.

I made four namecards. Cos I might change the design or have several designs~

My sister's DSLR is with me. I had alot of fun with it:

Kiwis made with resin clay~

Cream Puffs~

I made that box~

Still a long way to go! I know! GAMBATTTE, I'm still so loving it.

hmmm, I recieve a few presents for xmas already~ love roundy's cinnamoroll to bits. got a 4gb thumdrive from gift exchange, cardholder, mini schedule book from melvin's sister and yvonne~ =D Will get another 2 prezzies from LPY and CCS 's gift exchange!

lets end this post with 2 pictures of my cutie bbk~

2009-12-08T22:01:00.003+08:00

AHHH!
Tomorrow is my driving test!! FINALLY!!!!!!!!!! GOSH....
I really hope I pass! I dun wanna go back to UBI again! Don't wanna climb up in the morning for some stupid 8.30am lessons!!!! PLEASEEEEE. DA BO GONG, HELP ME HELP ME~
I had my last lesson (HOPEFULLY LAST) and the instructor who said I need 5 more prac before test said I can most prob pass tml!!! omg.... he gave me fat hopes!!!!!!!! I really need to pass!! COS..... NEXT YEAR NO POLES FOR PARKING ANYMORE!!! I'll have to relearn the techniques!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! omgomgomgomg. D=

Anyway.. last Sat was a pretty cool day.

Went for 8.30am driving lessons, then my dad fetched me to cousin's house to get my scoopies.
Then, headed to his office and help him check some emails.
Then he brought me to Heartland Mall area to have lunch. I had this ramen with Char Siew Rice's Char Siew (yes, i started eating meat liao) and he had soup and rice~
Then we went to buy a bday cake for my ccs's pals.
After that we waited for huiyin.
Then, my dad fetched us to Katong for ktv!

It was an amazing morning-afternoon spent with my dad. We seldom have ''alone'' times like that. At some point of time, I felt like crying, thinking of how nice is he to accompany me~ It was until at night, we had temple dinner at Tamp. My mom and I have to wait for him after the dinner to settle stuffs. My mom tried to talk to me, and said alot alot alot of things about R*L*G*ON that totally dampen my mood..... I teared at the backseat of the care... freaking feeling of helplessnesssssssssss..............

Monday, I met up with Anqi!!! I realised a big change in her... She used to be like more meek than me... I'm the one who will ask for directions or call the waiter in the past. But now its her! and and and she now speaks english with SLANG~ haha.... damn cool.... but when she speaks chinese is like back to her normal self! haha...

Today was pretty cool too... After driving lesson, I went to Tamp alone... I bought lotsa stuffs...

A Stitch stationery holder with dartboard
Stitch water bottle
Baby K's clothes
Necklace, gift boxes
Christmas Cards
Something for my sister
This gummy maker which I need the moulds inside for my clay.

The gummy maker is pretty cool just that I can't make gummies now since I used it for my clay. haha. It cost just $10 bucks!!! with 4 useful moulds... Now I can make nicely shaped donuts and bear shaped lollipops! My mom then came to meet me for lunch. We had this salad bar buffet at F.I.S.H. I think I'm weird, I really love to shop alone. I can go wherever I wanna go and buy whatever I wanna buy. So shiok!

Enjoy xmas and holidays! =D

2009-11-29T16:03:00.005+08:00

Haha, Some tutorial to clay-deco a mint box~

Anyways, HAPPY BIRTHDAY YEENING =D

2009-11-16T20:29:00.003+08:00

YOYOYOYOYOYO.

Haha. I'm like supposed start on this freaking assignment due on the coming monday. But I'm just so not in the mood.

Anyway, went to my cousin's bazaar this afternoon. I think its kinda fun esp towards the end. Muahaha. Exams are coming, but I so not in the mood. I wanna clayyy~ haha. clay all day!

Baby K is old month old soon. =D She's so cute everyday~

My sister's DSLR is with me, so fun! DSLR can't zoom much, is it?

Some drama updates~

海派甜心很好笑！海派是什么意思，有人知道吗？but 李威超不好看！！

宫心计也很好看！！！关菊英rocks! 陈豪rocks! 喜欢杨怡和陈豪~

考完试我要看完!!!!

桃花小妹我也有看~哈哈，可是只为了帅哥。。。哈哈。。。

Ok, I'm gonna finish up 海派甜心's 3rd episode and get working on my assignment, so that I can study for final soon! Cya~

2009-11-08T13:56:00.002+08:00

haha... JING QU JIANG was so fun~ haha! To my surprise, its SHE that brought us highness instead of Mayday~ Feel very constrained when Mayday performed~

So, I decided to list out celebrities I've seen before! haha!

International:

Maroon 5

Taiwan:

Mayday （一年至少看一次~）

Tension （n年前看过）

SHE （ella 远远看过两次，she 一次，就昨天）

Energy （5，6 次）

刘若英

徐佳莹

张芸京

萧敬腾

吴尊

陈升 (超级 -_-lll)

周杰伦 (远远的）

南拳妈妈（这个很厉害，因为我看的是1stgeneration的。）

曾国城

信乐团

孙协志

王心凌

苏打绿（巧遇）

Toro

叮当

周华健（很久以前）

林宥嘉

潘裕文

周定纬

许仁杰

潘玮柏

张善为

神木与瞳

魏如萱

Singapore：

黄靖伦

蔡健雅

蔡淳佳（都在很奇妙的场合看过她。）

黄智阳（滥竽充数一下，可是我跟他拍过照。哈哈。）

黎费辉

全体933DJ看光光。

Mediacorp 有的没的。。。最爽是在Elvin Ng 还没有红之前，在tm看到他，他还跟我妈笑。

Malaysia:

梁静茹

品冠

HongKong:

方大同（我跟他同台过。哈哈。）

夏雨

关菊英（live超级好听）

黎诺懿（特地去看十兄弟老大）

陈法拉

马德钟

米雪

王喜

林文龙

郭可盈

想看：孙自佑，小猪，高以翔，蔡依林，2moro (随便一个），陈健锋，杨宗纬，卢广仲，在家好月圆演管家公公公的阿伯，随便一个大牌韩国日本明星。super junior 好了，一次看13个。

应该就这样~我很白痴吧。哈哈。

突然很想做回14，15岁的追星妹妹。哈哈。。。。

2009-10-26T22:13:00.002+08:00

Made this as my computer wallpaper. ^^ She's so cute. I look forward to see her everyday. Everytime cries, I feel very xin teng! She gets hungry so easily, big eater like her mom. WAHAHA. Tomorrow is filled with lessons, no time to go see her, must wait till wed.

BOOO. T-T

Went to Liang Court and bought a special type of clay that dries abit transparent. So I tried making daifu. But my red bean is too purplish.

Anyways, I HATE MY PRINTER~ I hate printing double sided page manually. Grrr. Waste time only........

2009-10-21T21:35:00.001+08:00

Love this photo of the baby. Haha.
It is kinda hard to study for a paper, when a baby is born and all this commotions going on. Grrr..
oh wells...... back to study.

2009-10-18T14:18:00.001+08:00

I found this in my drawer and I wonder what was it for originally. The plastic is only around 2'' by 2''. What tiny thing did I bought that cost me $27 dollar?!! What a mystery.

2009-09-30T22:39:00.004+08:00

Weird.

Why I'm I still so relax and slack when the whole world is so busy?

It is not like I didn't do my assignments. But I forgot to bring it to school. HAHA.

Although I did did badly for one of the tests, but I did not fail it.

Look what optimism has done to me!

Friday has got a midterm, next Thursday too.

Studying for the Friday one but kept being distracted.

PET SOCIETY IS SO DISTRACTING.

Internet connection is like super slow.

Love playing Pet Society in school, my pet walks super fast from house to house.

Cute.

Lollipop of pastel colours. Wanna show off. Hahaha.

Still far from the play with clay girl.

HAHA. nvm. The play with clay girl specialised in realisticdoll house fake food, but i specialise in wearable fake food, decorations. I'm consoled. =D

btw. I WANNA GO CAKE BUFFET.

2009-09-24T00:17:00.000+08:00

happy birthday.

roundy. ^^

2009-09-14T23:35:00.004+08:00

School life is finally hectic. Haven't clay for a long time, haven't photoshop for a long time.

XP.

I miss photoshop/illustator ALOT. It was once ''i thought it might be'' my forte, but I dun think I'm good at it anymore.

Some work of the past....

Sis's name card. Incomplete even until now... her baby is coming out soon....

Ferris wheel. Something seems to be lacking from this one. Oh, the windows in the cables!

Can't believe I did not update on Mayday's concert! haha. It was fun~ with a different accompanion. Hope that one day, sis, xinyi and roundy can all go together with me~

Few days back, I went to a concert by Wawa Wei Ru Xuan, if you know who. I think I'm not really impressed by her. I don't know why. Maybe she mentioned something I dun really like during the concert. and somehow i think her singing is not so natural and attractive as compared to Cheer Chen. Her songs is also too emo and less rhythmic for my liking. I was there to accompany Xinyi number 2, from my vjc 1st 3 months~ She told me about her lessons with Xiao Han the lyrist at Funky Monkeys. Xiao Han told her students some gossip, which I found super interesting. HAHA. Is about WLH. ha, if u can figure out who is HE. I've never like him or have a good impression of him. So, I never doubt that the gossip is true~ haha.....

2009-08-26T23:31:00.003+08:00

Wujie's mom passed away.

She slept and never woke up.

I don't really know the details and I don't dare to ask much, because it is damn sad.

Imagine you sleep with your spouse and the next morning you couldn't wake her up. Wujie is only 6 years old, next year, he'll enter primary school.

I don't think I'll see him for the next CNY. He can't come my house to see his favourite lion dance next year.

I dun dare to go to the funeral. I don't want to see Wujie's sad face opposing to his smiley face. I also don't wanna see the situation of 白发人送黑发人。 Wujie's grandma just lost her son few years back, and now her daughter. Her husband also passed away when he's very very young.

Life is just so unfair and fragile.

Just feel damn damn damn sad for WJ. I wish I can be by his side now, but actually I'm not that close to him despite al my fetish for him. I can't imagine his feelings and actions now. Poor boy.... ahhhhh...

R.I.P Ah Liang 姑姑。

Her face lingers in my mind now.

I rmb the first time she brought WJ to my house.

I rmb how she told us WJ is a unexpected surprise for her.

I rmb her smile when she's feeding WJ.

She brought him up well, he's a polite boy.

She must be very proud.

R.I.P...

2009-08-24T23:03:00.003+08:00

Is it abit crazy to make the phone like this:

to the rightful owner of the phone: haha. dun worry, I merely did this:

2009-08-15T00:12:00.002+08:00

Yosh Yosh~

1st week of school just passed. Being the same old me, I've no stress and I'm still having enough sleep for now. Ever since I entered NUS, I've been really laid back, I think I have enough mugging and hectic life in JC. And I really believe that uni is very relac one. ^^

Will be performing for Geyao's Welcome Tea. Volunteered cos I wanna meet Roundy, I wanna let Roundy stay in contact with Geyao and I really enjoy singing with band and really wanna try new songs. But so far, pracs have been a disappointment. No chemistry, no feel. I really missed the band for Hong Bai. Maybe it was the 1st time and everything is so freshy.

Oh, and sadly, Science of Music's lecture is a bore. I didn't listen throughout the whole lecture and I ate alot of sweets. Actually all 5 lectures are boring.

nm2219: the voice of the lecturer is enough to make me doze off.

nm2210: lecturer from germany. I believe can be boring if she makes it boring.

nm2102: boring.

nm3215: the lecturer is not bad. but the audience damn noisy, makes me distracted and float away. =D

gek1519: boring.

I don't know how to survive this sem!!!

I'm kinda addicted to 超级星光大道5. I watched them super punctually. Alot say that the craze has die down and competitors are getting more lousy each series. That's is true for the 4th batch, the winner is just crap! But I really think the 5th batch is full of talented people. Do look out for names like：孙自佑李杰宇曾梓松。 I'm sure they'll be given alot of opportunities in the future. Esp 孙自佑。 All their voices are very special. Exciting!

Feel l like taking a language module next sem. A less time-consuming one. Like no such module hor?

2009-08-06T23:37:00.003+08:00

So.... I'll be taking:

NM2102: I totally forgot what is the title of this module. -_-

NM2219 : Intro to Media Writing

NM3215: Advertising Strategies

NM2210: Asethetics of New Media

GEK1519: Science of Music

4 NM modules! I hope the quota of major modules is not up yet. I haven't take my Interactive Storytelling and Photography Imaging yet!!! The bidding points were like HIGH HIGH HIGH INTO THE SKY, 让我爱又不敢爱!!!! I shall revenge when I reach year 3, with many many bidding points to 挥霍。

I'm most excited about Sci of Music.

COS...

1. NO EXAM

2. LEARN TO MAKE MIDI

3. HEARD TO BE EASY!

What a fun module! I hope I dun have to use SU option. Gonna leave it for the 2 breadth module which wil most probably be Sciencey or Businessy.

I'VE GOT A BIG ANNOUNCEMENT TO MAKE!!!!!

I'M GONNA QUIT MY UFO CATCHER LIFE.

After letting arcades earn a big part of my pocket money, I decided not to touch those Vampire suck blood machine for some time....

definition of ''some time''... very ambiguous though...

Im kinda addicted to this show call KATE AND JON PLUS 8.

About this couple with a pair of twins and a set of sextuplets (liu bao tai)

the sextuplets are so so so so cute.

but their parents are splitting up.

SAD.

very sad.... feel so sad for the kids!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

went to watch Harry Potter with my Mom today!

I.. rarely anticipate about movies, or dun expect much out of any.

But after watching this one...

I'm like kinda, WTH?

The only nice part is Dumbledore dying, but it is kinda sad.

BUt if he didn't die, then this movie is just pointless.

I dun read the books, maybe the prob lies on the book.

Even my mom think it was not nice!

anyway.

My clay life.

It is really very irritating to see people coming out with great great clay stuffs online.

got this nm senior whom yeening shown her blog to me...

she make great stuffs but with different type of clay.

everytime i see her blog, it just dishearten me!

but its okie~ i'll carry onE ROARRR.

Cos SO FUN.

Sch is reopening, and I realise, this sem onwards, many things will be different.

Owells, we'll see what's in for us ^^

2009-08-02T22:26:00.003+08:00

Wheeeeee!

I'm so proud of myself. This is definitely the nicest clay I every work on!

Finally something presentable after so many time and money spent...

2009-07-19T22:04:00.001+08:00

two new cuties on my bed.

<33333

2009-07-15T20:25:00.003+08:00

Few weeks ago, this person called Jenny** ***** added me on facebook. I thought she's the ufo catcher pro auntie, so I accepted. I read her profile and got a blogspot link. Apparently she's not that Jenny, but someone who cater to funeral needs. I was like... okie...

Today, I went to see a profile of Roundy's friend. Because that girl seems to be very friendly towards him. Out of curiosity, I viewed her photos, and made some not so friendly comments in my facebook status. You know I like to criticise. And I would care much cos she's not gonna see them anyway...

And suddenly... I receive this message from Jenny** *****,

titled: "U SAY WHO??"

her: "u say urself ar?? u also same , so mai say ppl 2 much"

me: "Hi, actually I saying my fren's fren. Btw, may I know who are you? hmmm, sorry if you're mistaken or what. but i dun even know you so of cos i'm not toking about you. Some things happen and I just wanna vent out my anger. -_- sorry if I offended you."

her: "lol."

I was pretty shocked to receive such comments.

Bad mood and then such stupid things happen.

But I stayed my cool, cos I think its like a misunderstanding with a total stranger.

The whole event is just...

...

I deleted my status, of course. And then she actually deleted me as a friend on fb. Her common friends with me is like Melvin's sister and Geyao's Duyao. But she dun look like she's from NUS at all.

I recalled the person's photos I browsed. Kill me if I am so-called same as her.

The moral of the story is: Jealousy is the origin of all troubles.

2009-07-15T17:11:00.001+08:00

some particular person. just left me dumbfounded.

2009-07-13T20:39:00.003+08:00

My life has been totally mono the past few days.

Clay and clay and clay.

I think my hands are toxicated.

Went for roundy's commencement. (shhhh, dun tell anyone)

百感交集。

Don't know how to describe.

Something happened to Scoopies. Not very big la.

打击很打。

but I've learnt my lessons alrdy~

I wanna go Liang Court!!!!! to get this clay call hearty clay.

Best clay for deco den, they say.

Was surfing all those ufo catcher plush website for someone's bday.

saw this for my own:

Bloody cute. if one day I'll become a cartooon character, I think I'll choose Cinnamoroll over Stitch.

$28 each, should I should I ?!?!?!!?!?!?!?! the blue one of cos.

I just bought it.

Meet up on Sat.

@-@

Buying the chaota stitch too. $20

@-@

2009-07-07T01:27:00.004+08:00

EMO POST AHEAD. BEWARE.

There's just some things I wish to let go.

Jealousy.

Sometimes I feel strong, sometimes I feel vulnerable.
Sometimes I think I'm the best, sometimes envy pulls me down.
I love to eat vinegar, but I hope they stay as just condiments.

Some self-reflections...

Maybe actually, I'm not that nice afterall.
I own the swear words. I can say the most vulgar word ever when I'm frustrated (and get my dad almost wanna slap me).

I'm not born a attention seeker, but I can if I try and if I want to.

I am, a crybaby, crying due the the slightest thing on earth.

Sometimes I appear to be super heckcare, but I care like 83741834713843 more times than you do.

Actually, I'm cunning...
There're alot of times I say what I don't really mean or feel.
I tried my best to be someone nice and lovable, but sometimes I'm disgusted by myself.

seriously. WHATEVER.
I love the word WHATEVER.
So why restrict myself?

I think... its time to visit DBG...

2009-07-06T01:04:00.001+08:00

This application on facebook morphs me and roundy's face together and create baby. I can't stop admiring at this kawaii girl over here. Must be my GENES man. MUAHAHAHHAHA. Does she look abit Jap? The function is so fun, go try it!

2009-06-30T23:33:00.001+08:00

NEVER GIVE UP IS A GOOD VIRTUE.

therefore...

NEW SHOP AGAIN:

SCOOPIES

**so happy that i sold 2 of my gacha and ufo catcher junks today!

2009-06-25T00:07:00.005+08:00

UFO Catchers are just killers.
But anyway, if you guys need any birthday present for not very close friends or whatsoever, do consider buying soft toys from me =(

2009-06-18T22:30:00.003+08:00

If one day, I'm able to make one of these.... I'll be so in love with myself....

Look at that 'dunno what'' berries~ Shiny and real..

I dun think real macarons look that good~

Diabetes!!!!

Yummmmy...................

O.o

Look at the texture of the ice cream scoops......................

Hungry Hungry!

2009-06-17T12:16:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I feel I'm very artistic. =D

I'm not unhappy now but I'm not that happy too.

Why do I always have the feeling of "the past is so much better, and i soooo wanna go back..." Everyday is a bore, but I can't think of anything to make it better...

The more I tried to make it feel like the past, the more I feel that it is not going to make any difference. Silence, good nights and hellos...

I hate emo, I'm not emo-ing...

To curb somebody's emo, I'm gonna stay away from it myself~

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I was waiting my mom to wake me up to go to my dad's office, but she didn't... Grrrr... She really think I like to sleep mehhs? Is nothing to do so I sleep till late....

Whassup with me? Meddling with clay and paints. Watch TV, Play comp, eat & sleep...

Nothing perks me up except arcades and Stitch. HOW SAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#$%^&#@#$%

2009-06-08T00:20:00.002+08:00

Once again......................
gonna be broke....

should i buy or catch?!?!

2009-05-31T15:15:00.005+08:00

Today, I'm gonna talk about my favourite characters ^^ These cartoon characters are important part of my life hor. Wahaha.

WHO: Stitch from Lilo and Stitch

WHAT: Alien Dog

WHY: Why do I like Stitch so much??? Good question, which I don't really know why as well. I didn't like it when it first came out. But I did watched the movie. It was when until recent years, there's damn lot of Stitch merchandise, imported from Japan, so pretty and nice and bluey! I started buying them, and alas, me in the no point of return route.

COLLECTION: Name it I have it. TONNES of keychains, soft toys, pouches, bag, cap, hat, t-shirt, towel, wallet, file, notebooks, pencils, mat... OMG... I really need a glass cabinet for all these. If not some of them will be just rotting in my cupboard. I wanted to collect everything Stitchy, but there's really too many that I can collect.

TRIVAL FACT: Out of 3878347183 Stitchy things, I don't have a Stitch watch. Maybe because I don't wear watch, so I've never though of getting one. And, very bo song that Scrump (Stitch's toy) is getting more and more popular. If I was Stitch, I would have throw Scrump away, if I knew this is gonna happen.

WHO: Cinnamoroll from Sanrio

WHAT:

Cinnamoroll was a tiny fluffy puppy that looked a small cloud and who could fly using his big white ears. One day, he floated by Cafe Cinnamon, attracted with the delicious smell of the cinnamon rolls that were baking.

Taking a shine on the Cafe Cinnamon owner (and the rolls), he decided to stay there and quickly became popular with the customers and becoming the official mascot. When he’s not napping on the terrace, he usually flies around town looking for great new adventures with his friends.

The Cafe Cinnamon owner named him because his plump tail was curled up like a cinnamon roll.

WHY: Cinnamoroll got the face I like. The typical Jap cartoon character's face. Damn cute! It all started withits CALENDAR.I went to Japan and bought this ultra cute Cinnamoroll Calendar, then every year, by hook or by crook, I get Cinnamoroll calendar. Have 6 of them now! or 7? forgot! The calendar ahs this page of stickers behind. Every year, I dun bear to use, so now I have many pieces of them. WAHAHA.

COLLECTION: Surprisingly, I have quite a number of Cinamoroll stuffs. This car cushion pillow like thingy (from Connie, u rmb?), mug (from Yeening), alot of stationeries which are mostly gifts. AND I DIDN'T MANAGE TO FINSIH MY MACDONALS'S CINNAMOROLL COLLECTION. BOO. So sad, I was so determine to get them all, but I think I started too late. Most Cinnamoroll stuffs I got are daily products I use, like hand towel, file... cos authentic Sanrio products are damn ex, I can't afford to buy Cinnamoroll "Wu E Bo E" like Stitch. But I do have 2 VERY CHIDISH LOOKING BAGS of Cinnamoroll, I don''t know why but, its there I'm not using it. Can give my niece. ^^

TRIVAL FACT: There was a point of time I like drawing Cinnamoroll alot, cos it is like one of the easier dog to draw ever. Try drawing Hello Kitty, I swear its damn hard!!!! the nose's positio of HK is very very crucial, maybe because of her missing mouth. But Cinnamoroll is much easier to draw, except the ears' curving. Also, I do not have a Cinnamoroll Plush toy, cos real one damn ex! Only got one small small furry toy.

WHO: Mametchi from Tamagotchi

WHAT: Mametchi (まめっち）is a Tamagotchi character that debuted on the original Tamagotchi, and has been shown on many versions since, at the point of making him the modern Tamagotchi mascot, along with Memetchi and Kuchipatchi.

WHY: Mametchi is damn cute, I find him cuter than Stitch and Cinnamoroll. I'll use handsome to describe Stitch. WAHAHA. How it started, Lishean will be clear about why. Is this Tamagitchi Connection game I got for my DS. You have to tend shops with Tamagotchi, at times you can anyhow draw the pets' faces and do funny things to them la. I always choose Mametchi to be my parter. Cos, he's so cute. He got a cute voice inside too.

COLLECTION: I don't have alot Tamgotchi stuff. But Yichen caught my one and only Mametchi for me ^^ So happy that time!!!

TRIVAL FACT: He recently become my offical 3rd favourite cartoon character, kicking off Hamtaro.

Thats all for now! will continue soon!

2009-05-28T22:57:00.002+08:00

for some reason, i'm gonna post my ps-ed jolin here. 2 big jolin.

2009-05-27T23:14:00.001+08:00

ROUNDY.

2009-05-27T22:15:00.002+08:00

This is gonna be an ultra random post.

Colin and Adrian

You'll know these 2 guys if you've watched The Amazing Race Asia Season 2 (It was way back in Feb 2008). They are the Singapore team and I guess you don;t know, they're actually the winners! I've been catching the repeat on AXN. And, I'm very very much impressed by them. Adrian (on the right) is actually born with some hearing disabilities. He can actually speak but with weird pronunciations. But I tell you they're damn cool.

There's this episode where they need to count the number of railing bars on a bridge which is crazy! There're like thousands of them. The Philippines team was also there. So the teams were doing some marking on the railing just in case they lost count or something like that. So, Adrian and Colin actually wrote Chinese, so that their rivals won't understand. They were so calm and cool in the end they won the thingy and got the fast forward pass.

Another episode, they have to do this quad biking on a desert like place and open up this cup like thingy to see if the clue is there. There's alot of this cup like thingy laying around. If there wasn't a clue underneath, there's a hour glass, they'll have to turn it and wait it to finish before moving on to open others. So, the teams are searching on the desert. Smartly, Adrian and Colin examined the footsteps to see whether the teams who opened the cup waited at the spot or left the place. They also open the cups alternately to save time. Smart.

The duo also made use of internet to book faster tickets to their destination which other teams didn't thought of. =) Smart.

Lastly, the last task of the last episode, was actually to arrange the flags of the countries they been to throughout the race in order. (Last destination was S'pore. How cool.) A and C arrives the latest, but while the rest struggled to recognised the flags, Adrian fixed the task easily, within a few minutes. He said that his mom bought a book of flags for him when he's young, and he memorised them. I think tt was so heartwarming. ^^

When they arrived first (at Chinese Garden -_-, can't believe that is the final pit stop), everyone was like cheering. I was so high, even though the show was like one year ago?? so outdated. haha...

Happily and excitedly, I search for their facebook. HAHAHA. Can't find Colin's, found Adrian. and he accepted me as a friend!!!!!!!!!!! whooooo, like a siao fan girl. Woah to found out a primary school friend and my sis's friend also added him.

Guess what, he's a fan of Geo Challenge ^^ He must be on the top.

More on him, is that, he knows Japanese... When they are at Japan, he communicated in Japanese, impressed, again...

My point is....

WHO SAY SINGAPOREANS ARE LOUSY?

I'm so so so proud of C and A, although regretting for not watching it earlier... -_-

But, touching stuffs will never lose its touchyness through time...

I wanna be as calm as them ^^

as smart as them.

Adrian's new status: Adrian Yap Will be heading off to Ladakh this coming Monday (1st June)!!

LADAKH??

check out where the hell it is here.

and be INSPIRED.

2009-05-21T22:17:00.003+08:00

I wish, all the wishes will come true.... if only.

I look so dumb in the 2nd pic... and 4th -_-

Amazing 20th birthday. =D

Thank you for all the well wishes!

So who is honourable first? Kiasu Roundy who called me at 11.56pm... <3

BIG THANKS to Yeening, Mingkee, Lishean for their touching posts for me ^^

Yichen too!!!! Xuefang! together with the girls for my surprise.

Connie!! U first again via sms! always so pro!

Zelong & Huiyin on msn ^^

Divs, Sha! via overseas sms.

Anqi! called from Aust ^^

Kok Ann who called!

Michelle.H, Michelle.C, Xinpeng, Sarah, Cindy, Ying Hui, Ruobing, Huipior, Elaine, Shuqi, Peieng via sms.

Xinyi!!!! who msged at 20.05 pm ^^

and those on facebook ^^

and my lovely family ^^

THANKYOU VERIVELI MUCHXXX.

I realise... one of my wish did came true from last year's birthday.

i hope. i wish. i want. the most most crucial wish could came true.

2009-05-20T00:25:00.002+08:00

Happy 20th birthday to myself.

No more worries... (i hope)

No more anxiety... (i hope)

Steady Pom Pi Pi...............

2009-05-15T00:51:00.002+08:00

我觉得穿起来会很奇怪的衣服。。。
好老气！！！

不觉得乖乖的吗？好像很紧的感觉。。。太多details了。。。

中间开叉很像太肥扣不上。。。左边那个好像很邋遢！

虽然之前流行这样的布。。可是这件看起来很老。。。妈妈桑的feel!!!!!!!!!!

2009-05-03T18:22:00.005+08:00

Exams are over. But don't know why not very excited? Maybe because I dun have much plas for holidays. Even my TW trip is cancelled because of bloody swine flu.

My mother bought me 3 tops from Batam, I told her to get something like my red shirt from Batam. Actually what she bought is not so bad, but I think I don't look nice in it. =( She say if I don't like she'll wear it.... I'm thinking of selling them too... I need new clothes!!! My closet is full... but the clothes I really wear is like less than 70%? But when my mother wants me to pick out those I dun wear, I insist in keeping them in the closet. My mother always asked me to buy clothes I'll confirm wear... I refuse to take the advice... Always buy clothes I wear 2 times or never wear at all.... In hokkien... GEI KIANG... 勉强。。。有些事真的不能勉强。。。浪费时间浪费金钱。。。

I also like to keep clothes that are already too tight for me inside, thinking that I can wear them after I slim down... Of course, that never happen after that time when I was secondary 3...

Hence...

my holiday resolution:

Lose weight. By exercising...
Buy clothes I'll confirm wear...
Find a job... 不要再靠关系。。。
Stay Happy...
Buy more Stitches... with my earned money...
Hopefully, a cupboard for all my Stitches...
Stay optimisstic...
不要动不动不爽。。。
Rebond, dye, highlight my hair... brown brown golden brown. 就是要吓我老爸。(Michelle can find me if need now.)
Minimise sugar intake...
Stop criticising people, cos someone don't like..
Have fun...
Be more sociable...
Stop rejecting dates from friends...
完全脱离宅女生活。。。多多出去。。。
穿衣服穿得有自信，但是避免露出肥肉和果条。。。
继续减肥。。。
有个愉快的20岁生日。。。

My birthday coming o. ^^ Wishlist 是一定要的啦。。。不想大家烦恼。。。我很好的ok...

1. 有心人士可以帮我找以下两个boron boron stitch.

2. Forever21 Voucher... =))

3. 其他Stitch or Cinnamoroll 可爱的东西。。。

4. Arcade tokens =))

5. 有心就好，祝福就好。^^

2009-04-26T23:58:00.002+08:00

Can't believe she won the best actress, still. I think quite alot of people will think, just like me, that Yueniang deserve the award more than her. Kinda funny I blog about such trival matter. But anyway, if she gotten the award, I think Robert Zhang shoud get the supporting actor award?? Right right right? I think any other actress get act her lunatic role ad "good" as her. Indeed, perhaps she has work hard or whatsoever... but are you serious she is that impressive? I don't think so.. I think its the messy hair and crazy make-up that helped her... ><>

i still rmb how our chinese teacher like to praise her... haha... bad impression...

but anyway... poor Kym ><

and... my mom was pretty upset that Patrica Mok did not get any nominations for her performance in 一房一厅一水缸 and some other shows... Injustice!

Bleh... Mediacorp....

Anyway, Restaurant City is super dangerous......... GRRRRRR......

2009-04-24T11:20:00.002+08:00

hmm... there's some things and behaviour I don't understand... I dun really feel like understanding and I think I should stop making me think too much... I've think enough... despite mugging my exams... my thoughts keep running on and on when I rest... there's simply too much things that I can ponder and worry about... stop thinking stop thinking...

i think i'm getting less and less independent.. not like I've been independent anyway... but the figure i'm dependent on has changed... slightly? or maybe an add-on...

somebody said to me, 'there's alot of unpredictable changes in the future one lah.' This sentence is kinda stressful for me... there're some things, which u put lotsa of stake in it... and this sentence just tamper your confidence...

I don't want to be like other people... I'M SPECIAL... at least I like to believe that I'm special in some people's eyes... Maybe I'm pampered, just want things to go my way... I know it is hard... but for once, I really hope I can strive...

tml is CL1101E and NM2101 exam... 2 exams in a day... I want to have alot of confident... but confidence just sway away at times... My mom says she dun need me do well, she just need me to pass. My dad also say that... I think that's a reason I can slack... but of cos I'm not that useless... There's a secret reason why I shouldn't slack... for if I think further, it is not a very good reason too... so... I should slack?

WAHAHA... no that's not my conclusion...

my conclusion is: stop thinking too much. idiot.

I have to finish studying CL1101E by 3pm... apparently I have 3 and a half hour more...

I really hop I get less Cs this time round...

2009-04-18T19:33:00.000+08:00

anyway, i lost my phone ^^

2009-04-16T22:39:00.002+08:00

美丽会凋零。--腐朽，陈绮贞

2009-04-15T23:22:00.003+08:00

有些人会觉得自己很渺小，用处不多，因此感到自卑，觉得自己消失在背景中。我也不例外，你也不例外。本人觉得，it's okay. 只要在适当的时候觉得自信 “I'm an umbrealla, an important umbrella!"，这样就可以。。。偶尔的自卑也没有什么大不了。。。

高兴。。。故事书终于完成了。。。真的是呕心里写之作。。。

给大家preview爽下。。。

希望拿A。。。我不是自信过头。。。

而是觉得，我们不是盖的。。。

付出的很可能比很多人多呢。。。

真心的喜欢这个故事咯！

是用灵魂去做的咯。。。

组员超赞。。。那么多project，最合得来的team。。。（GEOG不算）

Momo, 你最棒。

五月yn一起去台湾！yay!

虽然觉得，我们的相思病times2,很糟。。。

哈哈。

Sometimes... life is just so unfair... things happen before you know it...

hmmm.... life's just weird...

2009-04-06T15:31:00.007+08:00

她的现场功力真的超级厉害的啦。

我想听的歌她也都唱了。

感动！都不懂怎么形容。。。

就还想再看一场呢。。。 ^^

太阳

下个星期去英国

华丽的冒险

失败者的飞翔

2009-04-03T10:07:00.001+08:00

A freaking nice surprise in the early morning.

I restart my computer, and all my doc files are gone.

All my photos are gone.

all my 2208 done storybook pages are gone =)

nice one.

2009-03-31T23:34:00.002+08:00

Long time no blog ya? Projects, tutorials, juggling.... and of course my favourite hobby slacking. The above is a sketch for my storybook group project. Even though, we're still far far far from completion... I can't wait to spend time and chiong on it. Have a feeling that the result is going to be nice~ but of cos, better dun place such high hopes... but at least, dealing with photoshop and illustrator is much much better than writing essays reading readings.

Why can't adobe combine both illustrator and ps? Both functions in the programs are good and useful, but why cannot have a program that have two functions of the tool?

Momo, Noco, Femo are the main characters of out story. Names, give by me, but subjected to changes. It is so obvious that the names are from me. Noco comes from Noco Noco Mickey Minnie, Stitch. Femo is my cousin's dog. Momo is out of no where. Wakaka.

Anyway, CHEER CHEN'S CONCERT ON SATURDAY!! ANYONE HAS HELMET TO LEND ME???? Everytime she sings 旅行的意义, the audience will wear helmets! But I dun have T-T

FROM HERE ONWARD ARE JUST SOME RANDOM SQUABBLES.

A very very good thing that happen to me. Which is... install my free printer, and it can print double sided easily w/o me DIY and turn paper piece by piece everytime.

Another good thing that happen to me. Now I realise, every day 8.35 am there're be an empty train to Tanah Merah. So these few days I've been waiting at the platform for a precious seat. I'm so so so happy ^^ SHHHHH. DUN TELL ANYONE.

I'm so happy that my camera is very good. Ramdom thought. Cos, I need to scan things to send to my project mate, but I did it with my camera. WOOTS. so proud of it.

I GOT MY BORON STITCH ^^ from Mr Round. Arigato.

kawaiiiiii. i mean the stitch.

Mr Round's application for grad studies is approved. Congratz! Mr Round.

Next time can call you Dr Round.

I think I owe a few people birthday presents... Get it done, Get it done!!!!

I love Stitch. Noco and Boron~

and... MY SISTER IS PREGNANT =)

finally its 3 months. Can say out loud.

i want a nephew..............................................

gtg, replenish sleeping time.

tata~

2009-03-15T16:16:00.002+08:00

annoyed annoyed annoyed.
don't know what exactly makes me so annoyed.
the yc that likes to complain about my melancholy is back.

firstly, my mom insisted that i go cut hair. an auntie cut my hair, and i hate hate hate the hair length. maybe not that it is ugly, but i've kept my hair for sometime, and the forking aunty cut it like nobody business until very song. when my mom say NO NEED CUT THAT MUCH. and she did alot of layering and so proud of that. C'MON. my hair is pong one, cut too much layering makes it more pong. u can blow and make it straight, but after some time it will pong again. my mom think the auntie very pro.... blow straight i also know la.... and i said, cut till i can still tie... bloody hell, now my hair cannot tie....................... fork..... i want my daiso scrunchie!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

secondly, after i cut hair, my mom ask me what i want to eat for lunch. i say roti prata. she say DON'T WANT LA, SO OILY. then she ask want to eat ROAST MEAT RICE ANOT. SIA LA, THAT ONE NOT OILY? if u wanna ask me what i wanna eat, where i wanna go, dun try to counter argue me can? its not like i always eat roti prata. then she say here not hygiene, then U STILL CALL ME EAT INDIAN ROJAK FROM THE SAME STALL? wtf.

thirdly, i had a freaking difficult time to have practice.... cos of her again, i can't make it to the last rehearsal.......... and cos of some freaking event dinner again, i can't prac on friday........

i'm very pissed. forking pissed. pissed by every moment of today.
I HATE MY HAIR.
i shud just let it be messy, prove me right.
and now, i'm still thinking to go for rehearsal anot, cos my instrumentalists are not there, and all i have to prac is the harmo thingy... but no they're not at home, if i tell them i need to go sch they sure scream at me.....

sicked and tired.
just wanna explode.
I'M NOT A KID ANYMORE.

IF I WANNA CUT MY HAIR, I WILL INITIATE IT MYSELF. NOT LIKE I CAN LIVE WITH SADAKO'S HAIR.

IF U WANNA ASK ME WHAT I WANNA EAT, THEN LET ME EAT WHAT EVER I WANNA EAT.

GIVE ME A SET OF HOUSE KEYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

LET ME GO OUT AT NIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

LET ME SIT BUDGET AIRLINE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

LET ME GO TRAVEL WITH FRIENDS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

STOP MAKING ME GO YOUR HAO LIAN FRIENDS' GATHERING, STOP TRYING TO SHOW OFF MY ACCOMPANION.......................................................................................

2009-03-03T21:26:00.003+08:00

Nintendo Wii in 2010

The Nintendo Wii have revolutionized the way we know gaming but now it seems they are taking the same to the next level. After story about xbox 360 phone, now how about a mind-controlled game that Nintendo is proposing? T3 gives a little clue that all you have is a headset accessory that uses brainwaves to control characters and features immersing in-ear headphones. So just imagine a streamlined Wii emote with just one button, which you point and press and rest your brain takes over. Though brain-wave technology has already become a reality with Emotive pioneering in-game systems, but soon it seems Nintendo will come out with the first mind-controlled console on the market.

Heh, like that super no point for gaming wii!!!!!

2009-03-02T14:46:00.002+08:00

老婆：“老公你知不知道日本的宇多田，她好有名喔！”
老公：“神经病，我又没去过日本喝过雨水，我怎么会知道日本的雨有多甜？

2009-02-26T00:10:00.005+08:00

Long time no update ya?

Life has been quite terrible for me? I dunno.

But I'm really hating stagnant projects!

It is kinda weird to be photoshopping all day long for schoolwork. NM2216, NM2208...

But I guess it is better than writing essays?!?! ahhh.

I haven study for mid-term anyway. amtf, only 1 mid-term for us. wheeee.

did while slacking.

Part of my assignment, which I think I PS too much and its not acceptable. But, nvm, we'll see.

ANYWAY... I've been watching an anime. YES, ME ANIME. I think its very nice neh, called Natsume Yuujin Cho, 夏目友情帐。

The cat inside very kawaii.

Tired, go to sleep lo.....

GAMBATTE. GAMBATTE.

2009-02-21T18:56:00.001+08:00

2009-02-07T19:33:00.002+08:00

FINALLY, got my pink stitch ^^ super kawaii ^^ I hope they'll be no more noco noco stitch, if not i'm just gonna be super broke.

did my 2208 visual communication assignment just now, had fun with adobe illustrator. everything seems to be drawable with the pen tool. cooooolie. satisfied with the work, now have to prepare 4 tutorials, the boring ones..............................

felt quite irritated today... oh, and yesterday... may tomorrow be a better day....

cheerios.

2009-02-02T20:30:00.002+08:00

TT-TT I WANT... I WANT... Pinky stitch... XP

I hate UFO machines, cheater bugs. fork.

kawaiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii!

2009-01-28T20:53:00.003+08:00

农历新年快乐。

相信今年大家的红包都缩水了。。。

很‘显’吧。

我还好，赌博赢了满多的。。。

过瘾。

每年新年就是我和伍杰相逢的时候。。。真的是一年看一次，看着他这样长大的。。。他真的很乖，长辈叫他就笑笑，我们逼他当stitch他也扮。。。哈哈。。。是个难得的乖孩子。。。明年就上小一，别学坏了啊。。。

很想把脑袋瓜那出来，冲水再放回去。

但是应该会脑水肿。。。

嗯。。。压力大？

我不愁吃不愁穿不愁成绩的人，最近觉得stress stress 的。。。

应该只是自己给自己烦恼烦而已。。。

最stress的人应该是某人。。。
抱歉不能帮忙还一直施压。。。

加油加油加油。

上次没有加的一次过加完。

Geography project 一起加油吧！

突然想起[下雨天]这首歌。。。

真是的还没有在ktv唱过。

2009-01-20T12:14:00.002+08:00

Got my ICE CREAM PHONE ^_______^ but it is not working properly. -________- it is always like that, me and ITech just won't get along de.

Haha, my first start from scratch drawing? using PS... Kawaii bah. love the clouds. haha. Maybe can use as final prject which is picturebook. haha.

Bought this instant noodles which is for kids. Each packet is super super small! and the 'fishcake' is pig shaped. kawaii.

Possibilities for the flowers to be in the drain: bf gave gf flower then quarrel, gf threw it into the drain. or bf gave gf flower, gf scared mom see s throw into the drain.

ps: pic taken near my house, but not i throw one ahh.

CNY is coming~ but super no feel. Maybe it is because of economic reccession, it seems for sure that i'll get less angbao money this year. SIAN... $__________$

Gonna read readings liao.

@-@

2009-01-13T22:37:00.003+08:00

Ls must be angry now, she told me to do this once, and i'm doing it now cos yc called me to. HAHAHAH.

1. Put your iTunes/Napster/Zune Player/WinAmp/etc on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT
SOUNDS!
4. Tag 10 or more friends who might enjoy doing this as well as the person you got it from.

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1) IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
A: Nothing is Forever - Maroon 5 (hmmmm. i'm avoiding the question i guess)

2) WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
A: 爆肝-五月天 (haha, cos my the other half always sleep very late?)

3) HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
A: 别杀我- 卢广仲(somebody tried killing me?)

4) WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
A: Miracle - Howl (cool, I'm always waiting for miracle o?)

5) WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
A: 为你而活-神木与瞳 (coooool.)

6) WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
A: Ai Ai Gasa (爱的雨伞）-Tegomass (LOL, my friends most prob likes to share umbrella with me)

7) WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
A: 爱的提款机- TENSION (ROFL!!!!!!!!!! DAMN ACCURATE?)

8) WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
A: Wake Up Call - Maroon 5 (LOL.)

9) WHAT IS 2+2?
A: Thank You - Super Junior

10) WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
A: 后青春的诗-五月天 (haha, all old liao la.)

11) WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE? (nervous)
A: 疯狂世界-五月天 (wakakakkaka)

12) WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
A: 借问众神名- 五月天 (WAHAHAHA, need to ask deities about my life,)

13) WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
A: 纯真- 五月天 (lol, stay gold, stay gold.)

14) WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
A: She is - Clazziquai (i'm straight kae.)

15) WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
A: 只做朋友- Tension (hmmmmmmm. isn't it accurate?)

16) WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
A: 生活- 五月天 (Dance to life~ wooooots.)

17) WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL? (i wanted them to pay mayday song!!)
A: 如烟- 五月天 (nice, damn nice. just as i want it. this song is about death!)

18) WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
A: 牵牵牵牵手- yy (WAHAHAHAHA)

19) WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
A: Am I In Love - Jonte (haha)

20) WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
A: Back at your door - Maroon 5 (haha, someone back at your door u mean? that's bad, might be burgler)

21) HOW WILL YOU DIE?
A: 会呼吸的痛- 梁静茹 (funnnny.)

22) WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
A: Dilemma - Wheesung

23) WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
A: If I never see your face again - M5 and Rihanna (What's so funny about not seeing ur face again? hahaha. )

24) WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
A: Be My Love - Clazziquai (haha. must be the name of someone i dun like in front)

25) WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
A: Irresistible - Tension (Marriage is sure a temptation. haha.)

26) WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
A：花都开好了- SHE

27) WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
A：做你的男人- Tension 9 (....)

28) WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
A: 爱我吧- 方大同 (haha.)

29) IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
A: 有你的快乐- JOANNA

30) WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
A: 错错错- 五月天

8 songs are from Mayday~
hahaaaa.... super funny~

2009-01-10T23:08:00.003+08:00

WHAT AN UNHEALTHY DAY!

Breakfast: Breakfast wrap with HAM, CHEESE & MAYO & some veg.

Lunch: FRIED CHEESY CHICKEN AND FISH & CHIPS from Chippys. + Lemon Tea.

Lunner: FRIES AND CHIPS @ Long John and Coke.

Dinner: PIZZA, HALF PIECE CHICKEN, POP CORN CHICKEN, FRIES, SOFTDRINKS @ XF's house.

FREAKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!

nobody is perfect...
accept as it is, unless u're nobody.
i dun wanna be nobody.
so i'm not perfect.
if i'm not perfect,
i can't expect other people to be perfect.
but it's hard....
it's hard to accept other people flaws,
yet one can say without hesitation for one to accept his own flaws.
so how?
so whatever ba. ^^

2009-01-06T13:23:00.002+08:00

奇怪吧，没有阿信只有怪兽。人家站在面前，所以就多拍他几张帅气的照片咯。这次的演唱会还是一样精彩，只是耳朵过后耳鸣了很久，道现在还是有余音在我耳边。应该没有问题吧，还听得到。我还是一样爱五月天。。。^^

今天不停拉肚子。。。夸张叻。。。已经七次了。。。
这样排毒其实也不错，可是肚子都没有小到。。。WTH。。。

流汗的感觉其实很好。。。只要头不要痒痒的。。。
可是。。。我不要运动！！！（喊话给某人）

演唱会那天其实很感动呢。。。

我的xy啊，竟然跟你在大庭广众抱头痛哭。。。金拍谢 -_____-
你要快乐ok！我会幸福的。不幸福你带我找阿信。。。
你可以做石太（石油大王的太太）。。。或者猫猫。。。这样石头就又有狗（石头老婆叫狗狗），也有猫。。。可以玩PET SOCIETY了。如果你又跟玛莎又AFFAIR，他也有马了。

等一下要去见ls和yn。。。名副其实的chillout。。。
病人为你们出没，要感激哦。MUAHAHAHA。
还没有冲凉（random... yy说“冲凉”是文原文。。。）。。。铁定迟到。。。
对了，2009也想改掉迟到的坏习惯。。。
不然以后大家都没有等人的习惯，我就完蛋。

今天，虽然拉不停，心情挺愉悦的。。。
也许真的排毒了吧。。。
拉肚子，GO AWAY吧。

2008-12-31T23:34:00.002+08:00

2008。。。。。。。。。
要过了。
2008还挺精彩的，怎么说呢？

我妈跌倒啦，
第一次打工啦，
拿回成绩啦，
姐姐嫁了啦，
期待已久的日本行啦，
去面试啦，
进大学啦，
认识yy啦。。。

很多hor？

期待2009会有会有我想要的改变。
ONEGAI！

Happy new year!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-12-31T00:08:00.002+08:00

GASP!!!
I wanted to check my calender for next month's date.
Then, I realise, there's no more pages behind the december page.
名副其实的恍然大悟。。
但是。。。
不是因为发现2008已经快过去，而是发现我忘了买新的日历。
连续五年都买同款的cinnamoroll狗日历，刚好不是自己去日本买，就是姐姐去日本托她买，不然就是去韩国也刚好看到。。。
不死心。。。要去sanrio店找才行，不然不习惯。

从来没有那么期待开学。。。
期待得要命呢。。。
but... it is for the wrong reasons..... -__________-

要好好念书咯，拿出久违的mugger精神吧。。。
虽然很难。。。T-T

2008的最后一天，你要一个人过了。
对不起哦。。。未来再补偿给你。。。

2008-12-23T20:11:00.002+08:00

烦。累。想吃巧克力。

1 房间好乱。什么都不舍得丢。
丢掉丢掉，全丢掉。

2 我还能做什么？能帮你做什么？

3 讨厌。讨厌爱吃醋的自己。

4 明天要出门。要怎么说呢？

5 讨厌。讨厌过于乐观的自己。
考得一大糊涂还这么乐观。是怎样？

烦啊。。。。。。。。。。

2008-12-17T22:00:00.002+08:00

CCS outing... finally... (the guy with cap is some passerby! very retarded lo!)
Too bad Eugene couldn't make it. Miss everyone, all the crazy crazy days... ^^

aloha~ friends forever!

2008-12-11T01:30:00.002+08:00

Exams are over lo!!!!!!! (quite long ago though)

Life is simply very slacky. Slacked till my mom couldn't stand me watching dramas on laptop all day long. But not my fault ah, since she don't like me to go out too often! T-T

Finally, I went to take my provisional license. Waited for 2 hours plus plus just to get that paper license... and met minsi there! long time no see o.

Supposed to sleep before 12.30am, cos my pimples have been popping out due to late nights. But I think I'm pretty used to sleeping late already... bad habit!!! must learn to kick off.

can't wait for tomorrow~ oooh, actualy is today alrdy ^^
blk 27 and zichar~ wheeeeeeeeee~

2008-12-01T00:08:00.003+08:00

虽然觉得我爸有时候很固执，很偏激，但是，还是为他感到引以为傲。前天我的帅帅年轻的叔公跟我说：“我最欣赏你爸的性格了，敢说敢言。”我爸就是那种行得正，不怕得罪人的男人。我的亲戚，他的员工，公会朋友，很多都被他念过，骂过，得罪过。

但是，我真的很开心，有这么一个白手起家，那么能干的父亲。要不是他，我们也不可能健康，无忧无虑地长大。他对我的影响还真的不小呢。。。。。。。。。

他真的很疼我。。。我也决定要参加他的公会，做他喜欢的事。。。让他为我感到骄傲。

我知道。。。他一定也会很疼挂挂。。。
一定会合得来。。。
因为你们都是我引以为傲的人。

嗯！

2008-11-22T00:53:00.003+08:00

今天有很多值得提起的事发生，所以即使还有一大堆读不完的书，还是想blog一下。

得知一个表姐最近很像分手了。。。而且他们之前还定了明年的结婚酒席。。。
原因是男方不忠 T-T
不知道我是不是该知道这些，可是就听说了。有点怕她看到我在讲她，但应该不可能啦！起初是在facebook发现的，当下有点难过，还掉了眼泪！自己都吓到了！结果想跟她讲些安慰的话，可是又不大亲近。。。。结果在她的‘墙’上写了‘表姐，加油！’在亲戚面前我很安静，所以很怕她会觉得有点奇怪。可是重点不是这个啦，就觉得本来还很期待他们的婚礼，可是现在告吹，觉得好可惜。而且理由有点让我难消化。。。。。。。。。难过啊~

跳到一个比较开心的话题。。。。。。。。。安琪回来了！！！！！！
我的安琪！超想你的！虽然只是短短几个月，还是期待跟你逛街，乱走，唱歌，拍大头贴。。。。。。。。。期待！期待！

还有，最重要的
欣宜，生日快乐！！！！！
你要知道我很爱你喔。想和你一起浪费钱，欣赏便宜货，追五月天，帮你绑架玛莎，帮你驱走angel。。。等等。哈哈。

明天挂挂就要考试了，聪明的你一定没问题的。对你有信心~
(ls也是开始考了吧。哇哈哈。so coincidence neh ! )
Gambatte!

有些看了会伤心，会不安的东西，看一次就够。
偏偏人就是喜欢咎由自取。。。。。。。。。

2008-11-16T09:54:00.002+08:00

All the best for uni students' final exams!
Congratz to XF and CCS juniors for completing As!!!! (or finishing soon)
Congratz to Carmen and friends and YN's bro for finish the Os!!!!
Happy Shanghai-ing to MK! But don't forget out date next tues ^^

Can't wait for finals to be over...
Shopping, K, X'mas, fool around, slack around.... and many important things to do ^________^

There's many things to study.... but let's gambatte together... minimise the stress level...
JIAYOUUUUUUU.

2008-11-05T22:03:00.004+08:00

I'm finally blogging about chalet ^^ Erm... I really though that the HTHT was very cool. I feel that I understand my friends more? Esp yichen, haha. Even though we had 2 extra years spent with each other than the rest, I don't think we really talk like that during that time? 觉得偶尔HTHT还不错。^^ Really too bad that MK wasn't around the 1st night, if not we can get 爆料 from her... 2nd night is just too tired T-T If not I'll sure interrogate you de!

The bbq's response wasn't good. I think it is really quite irritating and demoralising for the organisers. That's why nobody likes to organise outing. When there's no outing for a long time, people will ask "When's outing? You organise lehh! You organise I sure go." But when it was really held, that person who asked normally will 放鸽子。Or maybe the venue and timing is just not right this time round?

Nevertheless, I still enjoy the chalet... although Yichen said i was suffering from 相思病。Maybe my expectation of fun is lower than other people? I think it is kinda a getaway from school >< At point of times, you dun have to worry about things, shiok ^^

I realised, throughout the chalet, that I really like taking photos. When I take pretty photos, I'll be very happy. Especially whe the person inside say it is nicely taken. HAHA. Like the one I took of Yichen... and also one of Lishean..

anyway...
Look at this foto....

and this....

haha.... I edited them >< quite obvious?

Now that we know what photoshop can do, I find it hard to judge if those nice nice scenery photos were original or edited...

This one taken by Yichen, not edited... It really give me a Ashin feel... those pretty photos he took and put on his blog all the time.... 虽然只是只有两片叶子的树枝，在照片里却比后面的大树显眼。。。。这是我对这照片的感觉啦。。。

WOW. I mentioned YICHEN 5 times (including now) in my post!!!

其实我最爱的是你啦。。。。 ><

2008-10-31T01:39:00.003+08:00

第一次听到《你不是真正的快乐》的时候，就觉得很感动。

第一次听完专辑里的歌后，觉得更感动。

卖了专辑后，第一次按顺序听完，超级无敌感动。

虽然我还是那句话‘还是前三张专辑最好听。’，但是觉得这张专辑是这几年以来最感动的感动的一张。音乐成熟了，阿信文笔更强了，其他团员更会作曲了，感觉上我也跟着长大了。 ^^

很喜欢《突然很想你》，也很喜欢《夜访吸血鬼》，还有《你不是真正的快乐》

可是最爱《如烟》的词。。。。。。。。。

太厉害了，每一段副歌的词都不同！每一字每一句都好有意思。

有没有那麽一朵玫瑰

永远不凋谢

永远骄傲和完美永远不妥协

为何人生最後会像一张纸屑

还不如一片花瓣曾经鲜艳

有没有那麽一张书签

停止那一天

最单纯的笑脸和最美那一年

书包里面装满了蛋糕和汽水

双眼只有无猜和无邪

让我们无法无天

有没有那麽一首诗篇

找不到句点青春

永远定居在我们的岁月

男孩和女孩都有吉他和舞鞋

笑忘人间的苦痛只有甜美

有没有那麽一个明天

重头活一遍

让我再次感受曾挥霍的昨天

无论生存或生活我都不浪费

不让故事这麽的後悔

有谁能听见我不要告别

可是。。。。还是《后青春的诗》的词最有feel喔。

然後呢? 一起走吧....

让天空解释着蔚蓝

浮云定义着洁白

落花铺陈一片红色地毯

迎接我们到未来

精彩未完的未来

^____________^

2008-10-26T02:01:00.002+08:00

Geyao- Hongbai Da Hui!!

WHITE!! THE WINNERS!!!

Didn't know we can be so bonded ^^ Hope we can work together someday again!

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这几天心情就像做过山车一样，忽上忽下。

但是此刻的我已经明白了 ^^

Arigato Gozaimas.

2008-10-19T14:48:00.002+08:00

不开心！！！

为什么没有什么准备的测验考得比想象中的好，有比较认真的（读了一两天的）却考得一塌糊涂？DOUSHITE??? 很离奇咧。。。而且，偏偏考不好的占据的%比较高。。。而且是高很多。。。T-T

就让我叹一个很长的气吧。。嗨~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
振作啊，振作。。。

昨天一整天纳闷，希望今天能够暂忘一切 ^^

－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－

题外话。。。
阿信写的一首歌，最近一直在MP3里被重放。。。
起初我很讶异，为什么歌词里，几乎每一字每一句我都能够产生共鸣。。。

一直听，一直听，希望它能为我改变什么。。。
结果它什么也没有改变。。。

还是起初的起初，这首歌唱的不是我的心情？是我自己理解错误？
感觉就好像有人跟我说了一个烦恼，我也觉得烦恼，结果努力的寻找答案，才发现我们的烦恼原来不同？

啊哟。。。。越说我自己越不知道自己在说什么。。。

拜拜。

2008-10-17T12:03:00.002+08:00

福娃－贝贝，Stitch 傻傻分不清楚。。

我爸又说了很好笑的东西喔。今天早上和爸妈去银行，那里摆了北京奥运的福娃5只。

爸：（指着贝贝）这个不是你最喜欢的喔？

我：huh??

爸：上次去日本的时候，你不是买很多蓝蓝的东西吗？贝贝啊。

我：-____- 不是这个啦。。。

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Chun Zhen 纯真 - Wu Yue Tian 五月天

有些歌曲无论听多久，还是会好感动。。。

在无声之中你拉起了我的手

我怎麽感觉整个黑夜在震动

耳朵里我听到了心跳的节奏

星星在闪烁你会怎麽说

你已经有他就不应该再有我

世界的纯真此刻为你有迷惑

我想我应该轻轻放开你的手

我却没有力气这麽做。。。

2008-10-13T18:15:00.006+08:00

I really don't know why my 笑点 became that LOW these days. I laugh for the most stupid things and least funny joke. After I realise that it is not even funny, I'll still continue laughing. But actually, laughing should be good for health... just as long not so exaggerated till you get asthma, or get wrinkles... LOL. Eating lunch with LS and YN really makes my day... Because their 梗 will just make me laugh non-stop... Although they always don't get mine... HAHA...

These days, I realise something... Many of the things can only be done with the world ''mutual''...

For example -

:To enjoy lunch with a person, 2 of them must be mutual, and really enjoy talking to each other...

: To exchange 心事, A must be willing to listen or talk to B, vice versa... If B only wanna find A to talk about his troubles, but is not really interested to hear out A's troubles... there is really no point.. and it is only when B finds A to tell his troubles, A will be more willing to share his troubles with B too...

Wow... am I even making sense?

I really think.. to lend a listening ear to someone is very important. But of course we shouldn't 敷衍 people (although sometimes I do if I'm too tired to pay attention)... It might not be neccessary to give advice but at least we should at least pay attention or give a signal that you are really interested... If you only enjoy telling people but not listening, you're just being a little self-centred... Only when there's mutual ''telling' and 'listening', there will be 'mutual understanding'.... Therefore, friendship can be lasting...

I'm not saying these cos I think I'm a good listener... there's room to improve on that myself for the sake of people around me... but I hope whenever I need them, they'll be there too... and I know my closest friends will..

还有一点爱在未来

要等你灌溉花才开

最后一滴泪流出来

还有什么事看不开

总有人会离开

有人会悲哀

总会有意外

有人会重来

有人会期待

总会有喝采

2008-10-10T00:00:00.002+08:00

tagged by mrs xie.. 20 random facts about me.

♥ i'm jealous of angel, stitch's gf.
♥ 脑袋装了没有用的东东。
♥ i want a nephew first then niece.
♥ love love love ice-cream, peppermint & peppermint ice cream.
♥ i don't really know how to handle kids, esp aged 3-10? I don't how to sweet talk with them!
♥ 笑点很低。
♥ 容易觉得尴尬。
♥ proud that i can complete a nds game in japanese, although i dun read japanese.
♥ something against government hospitals. send me to mount e if i faint in front of you.
♥ my mother is very very paranoid too! high five, ning. 很喜欢想很多！妈妈真的都一样。
♥ think my dad is super funny.
♥ my ipod has very random songs like 费玉清 and beethoven's.
♥ love to doodle. ♥ need more pocket money. 很缺钱！
♥ if i'm lucky i can be super lucky, but when i'm unlucky, i can be ultra unlucky.
♥ scared of wax figures. (probably except those celebs one in hongkong)
♥ will feel giddy if i sit in the front seat of the car.
♥ very sentimental towards things ，超级念旧，不管是人，事，物！
♥ used to feel giddy when i watch movie in cinema, now not anymore.
♥ my grades really goes according to how much i like the teacher. erm... like i'll score better for those subjects which tutors i like better.

tag? you you you.

2008-10-08T17:35:00.002+08:00

觉得薛凯琪很幸运。每次她跟大同合唱的时候，都是大同在帮她和音。他的和音真的是又高难度又精准。而且，他每次都帮她写很赞的歌。 They simply got the chemistry everytime I hear them... Lovely!

在四人游，复刻回忆后，听听这首翻唱合作吧。。

Something Stupid - Khalil Fong + Fiona Sit

She sounded like a happy little girl! ^^
Khalil is just as amazing as forever...
实力派就是实力派，你来开演唱会吧，我可以买下十张票。。。
哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈。。。还会带着小亦去喔。。

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2008-10-05T01:56:00.005+08:00

It is only this week I realised that my 19th birthday this may's photos are all gone due to my stupid comp crash in June. This year's birthday is one of my best birthday. I only manage to retrieve a few resized ones from photobucket. I think you guys will still have the ones we celebrated together at cafe cartel. Send me okay?

But the ones taken at loyang with lishean, the ones at korea bbq with my family and the ones cutting cake at home are all gone. I'm left is those shrinked and edited ones. SO SAD. T-T

Not only my birthday photos, those photos with the loyang kids, my khalil's photos, my sister's wedding day photo (yup, mentioning that again), my previous japan trips' photo, my sec school prom photos and all those green days' photo during secondary school are all gone. Maybe they're still there here at there in my sister comps and with friends, but still... u get what i mean. Surprisingly, all my photos with CCS are there cos I have softcopy of that. PHEW.

That's the prob... of digital cameras.. With digi cams, we'll never thought of developing our photos, and when our comp dies, all of those stuffs will be gone too... Maybe that's why my dad always insist on developing photos...

I think I have phobia already, now I dun even bear to delete photos from my digi cameras. But of course, 有些记忆是不用用照片维持的。

吹蜡烛的那一刻没办法重来。。。

烟火也只有在燃放的那一刻最美。。。

2008-09-29T18:43:00.002+08:00

My dad: No wonder now Singapore drivers become more and more reckless. People like you also can pass within one try.

Totally agree. I can't believe I passed! (LS passed too.) 老天爷，你真是太眷顾我了。。。

I hope I'll have the same luck with my mid-term exams, 还是我的运气已经都用完了？

I love my 毛毛CHAN!! Yup, gave a name to that stitch YN caught. 毛毛CHAN!!

That smaller one is called 小亦(for some reason linked to 方大同，大同小亦），don't you think they look alike? Kawaii~ 小亦 has been through alot with me since last year, so he's my favourite stitch plushie so far. I hope 毛毛CHAN and 小亦 will bring me more luck together. 毛毛CHAN tried to please me by imitating 方大同。哈哈。

2008-09-25T22:16:00.003+08:00

OMG OMG. Tomorrow if my final theory test for driving!!!! I haven't even study!! We wanted to cancel it but we're too late. I think I'll need a 2nd time to pass, or 3rd? T-T

me: what's the pedal (brake) for ah?
dad: to stop the car lor, so when u start engine u must step on it.
me: HUH???? I thought must step on it then the car will go?
dad: NO LA. if not the car will move, very dangerous.

Owells, I suddenly forgot what is the meaning of brake maa.

I've told my parents 3817389137498137418 times that I'm not cut for driving.They don't believe me. I still remember my GO KART TERROR. I almost died playing go kart at downtown east. LOL. Don't you think driving is very ''multi-tasking"? Must pull this push that... T-T
I can't multi-task... the most is eat while watching tv....

被载真是太幸福了。。。。T－T

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OH YA.
Today is Yeening's Mom's birthday!!!!!!
Happy birthday, auntie. LOL.
and it is 朱老师's birthday too ^^
I really wonder where and how is he already.. it has been 4 years?
Still remember how he walked out the class because we angered him so much., miss the good old days... Bass Family~ and my 死猪 bass. ^^
Hope Lao Zhu is healthy and happy wherever he is now ^^

2008-09-23T01:14:00.003+08:00

Hadn't made graphics for so long.. Ashin ^^

PS: Happy birthday, O1 ^^

2008-09-20T22:28:00.011+08:00

Happiest day in September...

would be better if mk is there =(

HOME SWEET HOME WITH MY STITCHIE PIE!

2008-09-19T16:25:00.002+08:00

我的MACARON 大失败！

Okay, initially it was successful and I realise I make nice flavoured cream! I made 3, peppermint with choco chips, peach and chocollate and apple cream. I think all are nice. SERIOUS!

So I start making the batter..... and my first attempt to bake:

Then I try the green colour batter, I decide to make it one big piece before I cutter it out.
In the end it looks like Pandan Cake!!!! I'm sure I used a macaron recipe!!!!!!

My mom think I suck at baking so she tried wipping the egg white abit longer....

There's just something wrong with the recipe can?
I'm still going to bring some for tml's outing.... wanna see how they look like?
Suspense!!!

Disclaimer: if eat le stomach pain... i accompany u go hospital.

2008-09-15T20:53:00.004+08:00

下雨天 -

Thank goodness I didn't miss out a good song like this..

Although it is super duper sad... T-T

Neither should you not listen, yes. you, you and you.

怎样的雨怎样的夜

怎样的我能让你更想念

雨要多大天要多黑

才能够有你的体贴

其实没有我

你分不清那些

差别結局还能多一些

别说你会难过别说你想改变

被爱的人不用道歉......

2008-09-14T12:46:00.005+08:00

HAHA, miss xuefang's pictures of pretty cupcakes?

Here to share pretty pics of MACARONS!!!

The different colours just makes me excited.

Packaging like this attracts even more^^

My favourite flavour: Rose.

Making thinners macarons might improve the quality of the bites? I think so!

Let's play UNO stacko with macarons one day!

Hungry hungry.

Are you hungry?

Actually I just had breakfast but I want macarons.

My sister still owe me 6 macarons! I was so happy when she said she bought for me. It was at her house for 2 days already. I hope it don't 'fa mei' or something. That time, I bought this box of 6 macarons from Japan! I spent one week to finished it, cos it is so yummy, I don't bear to eat them all at once!!! I miss Japan's macarons.....

For those who hadn't tried macarons, the crust is abit crispy! and their flavours are always very special. 吃了幸福的感觉喔。I'm in search of PEPPERMINT MACARONS. Yeah, after my PEPPERMINT BUBBLE TEA, PEPPERMINT SHOWER BATHE, PEPPERMINT MOONCAKE. haha.

Btw, I still can't find my peppermint mooncake this year! Anyone saw any?

Anyway, I'm so distracted. Distracted by whole lot of things! and oh, random switch.. kept listening to 温柔还你自由版。。used to like the original version better.. but i'm liking this song this version suddenly... the switch from ballad to soft rock（2.40 to 2.55) ... compiles all the reasons for my love for Mayday's songs....

溫柔(還你自由版) - 五月天

Nice nice nice. I miss mayday.

2008-09-13T00:36:00.002+08:00

Not Ken, not Nodame.
Now I totally feel like Amemiya from Hotaru no Hikari.

2008-09-12T17:30:00.002+08:00

It is kinda funny. We stoned for 2 hours and had no idea what to do for our 'Stereotype' project. And then Suddenly we got an idea and everything went super smoothly espcially finding books for our topic. I like our topic too : Women more vain than guys?

I guessed this is so called rainbow after the rain?
雨过天晴。。
在这瞬间，真的觉得生活也不算太糟？
也许明天我又会埋怨，但真希望这种感觉能持久一点！

Life is kinda bad but there're still little things that made me happy these days.
Happy happy happy. ^^
OPTIMISM.... is really what I'm seeking for now?

GAMBATTTE, PALS!

2008-09-08T21:30:00.002+08:00

Today is an awfully pathetic day.
$14 when lalala and then gone, vanished in the air.
I became insane and keysiao and lunatic.

Can anyone be so stupid?
I think me and yeening needs a knock on our heads man.
oh.. and mingkee ><

http://kawakiyo-cantabile.blogspot.com
VISIT NOW AND BUY ALL MY STUFFS, IF NOT I'LL BE DEPRESSED FOR THE WHOLE MONTH.

2008-09-07T23:13:00.002+08:00

It has been almost one month but I'm still in holiday mood. I just can't stop cursing and swearing because of all the readings and projects.

If only I live in Proposal Daisakusen and I can keep turning time back the 8 months of holiday,
if only I have started watching J-dramas early,
if only I've picked the languages I wanna learn,
if only I learn how to join sprees earlier,
if only I daydreamed more,
if only I really start completing my stories.

Strangely, all these if only came up into my mind again. Its like a viscious cycle? I thought I wasn't so into all this regrets already.

Where can I get an eight months holiday again?
Maternity leave? Aha. I don't think it is that long anyways.

My life seems like a cycle.
A cycle of mugging, slacking, regrets, mugging, slacking, regrets.
During holidays, I'll go overseas and come back and keep wanting to go abroad again.
I have so many visions but nothing was really done.

And here I am, not ready to be a mugger again, preparing tutorials the day before.
and start missing those good old slacking days.

Somehow I feel like I'm Ken from Prodai, procrastinating in every chances given to me to do what I want. But I'm luckier than him, I didn't have so many obstacles and I don't have to keep running against time. I was too laidback that I accomplished nothing. XD

I'm waiting, waiting for my next long holiday.
Will I still miss my golden opportunity like how Ken does everytime he faces Rei,
or will I spend quality time like how Nodame grasped every chances to be with Chiaki?

WAKANAI!

2008-09-04T21:11:00.003+08:00

I realised I have Stitch cap and Stitch hat, Stitch shirt, Stitch bag and i'm getting my Stitch shoes soon... All I need is a Stitch pants to go all Stitch. haha.

and I want this!